lyke, OMG y'all

inked on skin for life,

something alike and yet the same,

a reason and symbol left behind,

full of danger and yet so tame.

what you want will always happen

never give up on what's true,

blue, green, black and blonde,

something old somehow seems new.

through music and through words,

both crafted by the hand,

so much more hopefully to come,

like a plane that will not land.

so much beauty in your eyes,

expressed through what you do,

with a click and a sweep of a brush

your vision always shines through.

promise to make it a better one,

last year is done and through,

breath deeply and prepare to blow,

this time the birthday boy is you.

xoxo

that was sexual

WIND IT UP!!!!!!!!!

WHAT R U LISTENING 2 RIGHT NOW?

1. moi lolita- alizee (loves it, thanks jen!)

2. glamorous- fergie

3. love stoned- justin timberlake

4. hung up/what u waitin' 4 (mash mix)- madonna & gwen stefani

5. wind it up- gwen stefani

6. nothing in this world- paris hilton

7. rock this party- bob sinclaire

8. as lovers go-dashboard confessional

9. maneater- nelly furtado

10. lips of an angel- hinder

11. bling- the killers

12. nails for breakfast, tacks for supper- panic! at the disco

13. u + u'r hand- pink

14. here i go again- rihanna

15. i don't feel like dancin'- the scissor sisters

16. no reason- sum 41

17. hit me baby, one more time- dilana

18. spooky little girl like you- ?

19. stolen- dashboard confessional

20. when you gonna give it up- sean paul

download away!

LAST BIT OF TRASH FOR THE DAY...

and by posting this pic, i've officially commented on the lives of all my girls today!! yes boys, this is paris and brit-brit hangin' tough...what's the world coming to, i know!!!

so lil' lady spears has gotten herself a nice hefty divorce from that skeezy excuse for a human being, has taken up the cigs once again (hopefully not around the kidz that is) gotten herself a new weave, and apparently has forgotten to keep her pants on when she goes out.

do you see what hanging out with paris hilton can do to a girl?? apparently, they were partyin' it up in vegas, and the girl decided to take off her pantaloons, and parade around the club in only her fishnet stockings...my oh my...just when i was getting high hopes for her again...she pulls a "no pants" trick on us!!!

no, it's not that bad...a little tasteless, yes, but not that terrible. at least she's still wearing shoes, right? unless she ditched those in the bathroom letting history repeat itself...no, she wouldn't...would she?

but seriously, the girl's lookin' mighty fine, and i'm happy to report that she's in the works on a new album these days, due out early next year.

i guess you could say i'm mildly excited...

uh huh.

MIZZ RICHIE ALSO LOOKIN' A LITTLE DARK THESE DAYS

my other favorite "skeletwin" (coined by trent; love you!!) the other pictured below, has been sporting a noticeably darker shade around town these days. and i must say i'm a little torn as to how i feel about it.

i was behind brit-brit when she went black, and even lil' l.lo looks mighty ravishing as a dark brunette...but lil' richie has me on the fence.

blonde rocks, and it always will...there's no denying that. but i must send some "maine kudos" out to my ladies for taking a stab at lookin' different!! keep on doin' your (tiny) thang girls, the gays are behind ya!!!

the caption beneath this photo, in case you were interested in the other-less-superficial-side to life, is that there was a rumor that poor nicole has had "reverse gastric bypass" surgery (i think) in an attempt to make her look...plumper? she of course denies any such rumors.

ahem.

L. LO'S TRANSFORMATION INTO DEMI MOORE IS COMPLETE

it's been coming for a while now, as you can tell...the little redhead who could, has officially delved a little too far into the 'darker side' of life, and has become none other than demi moore.

the resemblance is uncanny. the long dark locks, the tanned skin, the hanging-on to elite fashionistas; that's donna karan by the way. there's actually another pic of the two of them making out (ok, kissing on the lips) that was taken a few moments after this one, but i couldn't bring myself to post it...look around and i'm sure you'll find it...not that exciting boys, don't get your panties in a twist...

she's quite the chameleon, our little l.lo...blonde one second, coked out the next...where does she find the time?

POP ART

last weekend when i was spending money that i don't have in bangor, i came across a camera that mattinc had told me about. it's a pop art camera that takes four different pictures at four different angles, in four different colors (blue, red, yellow and green) at the same time.

how excited am i??? very, people, very.

i've had a love for pop art for many years now; this is a pop art rendition of miss marilyn, to give you all an idea of what i mean. i do believe this one was done by andy warhol, back in the day...

i don't really know what it is about this art style that i love so much, but let's just say that my obsession is growing!! i guess you could say that it's certainly a little off, and a super-stylized depiction of a life through a technicolor lense. it's the contrasts that i enjoy the most i think...

so needless to say i've been taking pictures like crazy lately. and if you move the camera as you're taking a picture, it sepposedly creates a blurred effect in at least one of the four pictures it takes.

hopefully when rite aid gets the technology to put their photos on a disc, i'll be able to post some of them on my blog and give you all a little taste of the artiste i've become!

tee hee...stop smirking.

GET IT

GET IT






















take it, want it, give it, get it,
i'm lucky, you're lucky, open it up,
see what i see, not what you do,
you be my drink, i'll be your cup

beauty runs deeper than skin,
soul, body, and heart,
attraction is the whole,
never wanting to be apart

stars can be blind,
people can be too,
forget what's in your head,
try to forever see through

forever must be happy,
content with the you,
take it, leave it, listen to it,
i'm the one that is true

you're my mister and my sir,
listen for my sweet ring,
play it, write it, blue and green,
beautiful sunshine let it sing

that was sexual

LOVE STONED

those flashing lights come from everywhere, the way they hit it, i just stop and stare...

she's got me love stoned...i think i'm love stoned...she's got me love stoned...i think that she knows, i think that she knows...oh, oh, oh...i think that she knows, i think that she knows, oh, oh...oh

and now i walk around without a care, she's got me hooked, it just ain't fair...i'm love stoned, and i swear that she knows...i swear that she knows...

FINITO

well i can't say i didn't see it coming...obviously my brit-brit is waaaay too good for this fuckin' loser federline-character...i mean come on, people!! what did she ever see in him?!?

if it wasn't his skeezy-homey-g-wannabe-gangster style of wife-beaters and below the knee shorts, it was his revolting way he carried himself (wait, that's kinda the same thing...) or his laughable attempt at a music career.

personally, i think he was constantly spiking brit-brit's punch with somesort of muscle relaxant that enabled him to spread his skanky seed inside her in hopes of carrying on his family name...

and while we can't say he wasn't a tad bit successful in that attempt (they just had their second horny love-child) it seems as though ms. spears has gotten off the zoloft and woken up from her temporary-insanity driven marriage-spell to this fuck-wad and officially signed the "irreconciable-differences" driven divorce papers!

let's all take a moment out of our busy day and let out a "FUCKIN' 'EH" for britney's realization of what the rest of the world has always known was a devastating and pukishly disgusting mistake.

right on ya, brit!

IN MY HEAD

why is it that there always seems to be something to be worried about? seriously, maybe i can attribute my worrysome nature to the obsessive-compulsive nature that seems to run in my family, or maybe it was the years of popping pills that has caused me to develop pre-mature age lines...but whatever the reason, why do i always let myself become plagued by something??

if it's not this thing, then it's that...or if it's not you i'm worried about, it's him i'm obsessing about. when does it end? do i find some sort of odd pleasure in being constantly paranoid about the people/things in my life? or is it just a part of my personality?

and how do some people just seem to breeze through potentially stressful situations without even a hint of worry? what's their secret? cause i'd really really kill to know...

i don't consider myself a self-conscious person, but every now and then my paranoid nature catches up with me and my whole world seems to fall apart over something that's (usually, and hopefully) self-constructed without any real source or cause. it's usually all in my head, but why do i find myself totally helpless when it comes to letting those things go??

usually the issues don't last for too long, but every now and then something happens that sends me into a retarded paranoid neurotic tizzy!!!!

HELP!!

A WALK ON THE DARKER SIDE


well turns out that i have a little bit more free time to post a few more halloween thoughts, than i had originally anticipated!! and by 'free time' i mean while i'm waiting for my laundry to finish drying at dear old "dinah's" across the street from school. and with the absence of my iPod today, i'm at a loss of activities to drown her incessant ravings out...so here i am!!

after a much unneeded ordeal with the opposite of fine people at "coastalcontacts.com", my original halloween contact lenses ("manson" style) are not coming. so at the risk of having a 'bad' costume (which will never happen for yours truly), i've decided to modify my "goth" costume idea just a tad.

basically instead of scary white-out-marilyn-manson style lenses, i'm going to refurbish last years "angelic" model...hopefully they will do the trick...although i'm not going to get into just how retardedly pissed off i am at the shits at coastalcontacts, all is not lost dear readers...halloween will still come as expected...

anywho...

this year i've decided to dress as i am not, and go as a "goth" for tonight's halloween festivities. why would a blue eyed sun loving blonde such as myself want to dawn dark apparel and black nail polish for such an event, you ask? well i guess you could say that i've always found myself a tad bit taken by the "goth culture" of yore. you don't see too many "stereotypical" goth-like kids these days, but in my opinion the 'gothic' subculture hasn't strayed too far from view.

what's it all about anyway?f according to my new best friend; wikipedia.com one can identify the subculture as so:

The goth subculture is a contemporary subculture prevalent in many countries. It began in the United Kingdom during the late 1970s to early 1980s in the gothic rock scene, an offshoot of the post-punk genre. The goth subculture has survived much longer than others of the same era. Its imagery and cultural proclivities indicate influences from nineteenth century Gothic literature, mainly through horror movies.

The goth subculture has associated gothic tastes in music and fashion. Gothic music encompasses a number of different styles. Common to all is a tendency towards a “dark” sound and outlook. Styles of dress within the subculture range from death rock, punk, androgynous, some Renaissance and Victorian style clothes, or combinations of the above, most often with black attire, makeup and hair.

does wikipedia have it right in your eyes? is it really just a branch of the 80's punk vibe that we all fell prey to at some time or another? or is it a deeper idea than that?

no one can deny humanity's fascination with darkness, and the macabre. i think it would be foolish for us to say that all of us don't have a dark side to our personality's. even "little miss sunshine" has her shitty days, right? so why do we hide them? has it become so socially unacceptable to dabble in ways that are not the norm that these subcultures have been forced completely underground and out of view? and who's fault is it anyway,that this way of life has become so tabboo?

couldn't you say that maybe those who follow a gothic style of life are just simply being honest? perhaps they listen to that other voice on their shoulder, and this is simply the way they express themselves! i always find it funny that we accept certain styles/ways of life/attire more than others. who ever said that "preppy" is acceptable, and not "goth"?? and will it always be this way? and am i falling into society's trap of alienating certain groups by merely adorning the 'dress-up' attire on halloween? maybe i am adding to the idea that it's not acceptable by almost inadvertantly making fun of it tonight? what do you think?

whatever their/your/my reasons for sometimes allowing the darker side of life to creep in a little, we can't deny that it's there. so yours truly (who's considered 9 days out of 10 as a self-proclaimed Mr. Brightside), will walk on the shadier side of life tonight as a full size, life-like portrayal of HIS dark side...

photographic representations to follow.

A NIGHT TO SCREAM

last year i dedicated a month's worth of blog entries to my favorite howliday, but unfortunately in the essence of time, dear readers you'll just have to settle for this one. (and maybe a few more if i feel inspired!)

ahhh, all hallow's eve...it's soon upon us; the legendary night when the dearly departed spirits of the other world are allowed to return to earth to haunt the unsuspecting, all dressed up with nowhere to go...

the night will be crisp, the candy will be flowing, and no one will go to sleep before taking a quick peak under their bed...just in case...

it's a very odd tradition, isn't it? dressing up in costume, travelling from house to house collecting candy, and preying on eachother's deepest and most ingrained fears. i guess there's no denying just how much the human race loves to be scared...

there's nothing like it in my opinion; that nail biting feeling, the heart pounding, the cold chills, and the hairs on the back of your neck all standing on end...

so as you get ready to celebrate yours truly's favorite night of the year, proceed with caution, dress spectacularly, drink lots, scare everyone, stay out late, and remember to check in your closet before you close your eyes...

oh, and the footsteps you hear outside your bedroom door...prey they go away...


happy halloween

WHAT WAS ONCE

this is more of an apology to all of my fellow readers for not posting anything lately. (how many of you there are!!) you know i don't normally log-on to simply give ya'll a recap of my day's occurances...but this time we'll just write if off as an exception!! and for those of you who i haven't spoken to on the phone in a while; you can take this as a little summary of the last few weeks!!

school is going by very well these days; i'm EXTREMELY busy!! we don't so much have mid-terms in every class but we do have tests, and assignments, and reflections, and papers, and readings, and books to finish, and i'm sure there are a few more tests/papers thrown in there that i have forgot to mention!! so in other words, i haven't had a lot of time to breath since after thanksgiving!! but all is still good!! and by good i mean that i'm keeping myself busy and out of trouble!!

mind you i still find the time to make a trip to canada to go drinkin' with my girls every friday night! (tonight being no exception!!) and it's a good thing i made the treck last friday, other wise i might not have met a certain someone!! i was going to just write solely about him today, but i dont' want ya'll to heave on your keyboards at my gushings that i'd be sure to regurgitate!! he's lovely, he's fantastic, he's passionate, he's sweet, he's thoughtful, he's level-headed, he's not afraid of who he is, and he likes lil' ol' me!!! and don't forget BEAUTIFUL!!

ahem.

so that's been going pretty good!! who would of thought that i'd have to go all the way across the country to find happiness!!

everyone here has gotten progressively closer as the months have rolled on. and i can honestly say that i've made some (hopefully) life-long friendships! we're all here for the same reasons, and every day i wake up i always find myself thinking that i'm at summer camp or something! but then i pinch myself and realize that, i'm just home!! this is my home, for now! and it hit me a little while ago just how happy i am here!! it's nice to be faced every day with new experiences, and new faces! let's face it, halifax (not the people in it...or not most of them anyway) had gotten old to me. and some may make fun of me for being all the way in bum fuck nowhere, but to them i turn a blind eye now, and simply shrug it off! i'm happy!

i still miss my beloved's, and to you i say don't worry, december will be here before you know it! i'm looking forward to coming home, and i'm not at the same time. thanksgiving didn't turn out totally the way i had hoped...drama oozes from that city, and i'm so over it. (you know what i'm talking about). being unhappy and worrying too much about things that can't be helped is stupid and unproductive, and i'm done with it. leave those things behind, and keep your eyes on the road ahead.

so i bid you a temporary farewell, and a kiss and a hug until i write to you all again...have a fantastic weekend, blow a kiss to the halifax air, and keep on smiling...it looks good on you!

All of us believe
That this is not up to you
The fact of the matter is
That it's up to me

Hey, Hey, Hey
Hey, Hey, Hey
Let's Go

How can we fake this anymore (anymore)
Turn our backs away, and choose to just ignore (choose to just ignore)
(Some say) Some say it's ignorance
It makes me feel some innocence
(Some say) It takes away a part of me
But I won't let go

Tell me why can't you see, it's not the way (not the way)
When we all fall down, it will be too late
Why is there no reason we can't change (no reason)
When we all fall down, who will take the blame
What will it take

Nothing could ever be this real (be this real)
A life unsatisfied that I could never feel (I could never feel)
(Some say) This future's not so bright
Some can't make the sacrifice
(Some say) It's much more than just black and white
And I won't follow

Tell me why can't you see, it's not the way (not the way)
When we all fall down, it will be too late
Why is there no reason we can't change (no reason)
When we all fall down, who will take the blame
What will it take

Times like these I've come to see how,
Everything but time is running out

Hey, Hey, Hey
Hey, Hey, Hey
What

All of us believe in what we need
What we have's what we don't see

Tell me why can't you see, it's not the way (not the way)
When we all fall down, it will be too late
Why is there no reason we can't change (no reason)
When we all fall down, who will take the blame
What will it take

Tell me why can't you see, it's not the way (not the way)
(so how long, has this gone on, i don't see this ending)
When we all fall down, it will be too late
(it's too late, we can't change, what has now begun)
Why is there no reason we can't change (no reason)
(we act like, its not right, why are we pretending)
When we all fall down, who will take the blame
(we've been wrong, for so long)
What will it take
(WE'VE KNOWN THIS ALL ALONG)

what exactly does christina do??

Self-proclaimed definition of an occupational therapist
by chrissy darrigan

Occupational therapy,
What is that you say?
Is it related to finding others work?
And is physio the same?

The truth is it is neither,
But you can find us everywhere.
In hospitals, schools, or community centres.
There’s no limit to where we care.

We work with people with physical disabilities,
And mental health issues too.
We work with those who have been injured
Neglected, or abused.

With babies, and young children,
Middle aged and older folks,
No matter where one is in the life span
We may be able to provide some help

An occupation is not just a job
But refers to all meaningful things you do
It could be dining, studying or leisure,
It’s really up to you

There activities that you complete
Out of desire, need or expectation
That you would surely miss,
If unable to do them for one or more reasons

So when one needs to re-learn an activity
Or have one changed to meet present needs
Acquire some new skills
Or home adaptations that will please

Occupational therapists are present
Focused on the goals you would like to achieve
We’ll listen to your stories
Our targeted outcomes are your dreams


isn't our little poo a talented little one???

25 years crazy,
not a moment too late,
here and there and back again,
now deciding my own fate.

new place, new friends, new everything,
old behind, looking ahead,
no regrets, no inhibitions,
loving more instead.

cutting you off,
knowing it's for my own good,
people who hold you back,
never totally understood.

sometimes wondering what if,
dreaming of a different time,
when things seemed clearer,
addicted like a thief to a life of crime.

do we ever move on,
or stay connected in our minds,
to you, to him, to everyone,
to an idea less sublime.

such excitement is sure to lie,
in classrooms and with the young,
try my best to keep the chin up,
and try my best not to get stung.

love happens when it shouldn't,
a surprise sometimes that smiles,
rather feel it than rather not,
will always be in style.

wait for it, you know you want to,
never wanting to wait to play,
don't wanna lose this feeling,
turn it up and make it stay.

too many cups of fun, a pinch of drama= one helluva weekend!!