READY TO DRINK AWAY MY CHRISTMAS

is it sad that i'm just looking forward to this christmas thing being over with for the year?? i know, i know i should probably have more of a christmas spirit...but honestly with no money to purchase gifts with, and rain instead of snow, i don't believe there is a cure for my 'christmas blues' this year...

and it's funny, cause just when i think i may have found some christmas spirit from deep down within my belly, something else changes my mood and i'm back to being a "bah humbub"-scrooge type kinda guy!!

and do you wanna hear the worst part??? i'm annoyed by all those 'holly-jolly'-types, who are constantly humming christmas carols under their breath, and walking with a seasonal-spring in their step, and sending out revolting xmas cards filled with tidings of great joy...blah, blah, blah...wake me when it's over!

maybe if i had been more able to experience the hustle/bustle of the season would i be more apt to celebrate the festivities...or maybe if i had been able to put together a "wishlist" might i have been more excited to wake up and seen what silly things might be laying under our tree tomorrow morning...or maybe if we had an actual tree in our living room to decorate, instead of our more environmentally-conscious-greenhouse-gas-less little tree...(don't get me wrong though, i'm all about our little tree, it's just that it doesn't feel too christmassy in our house having not been able to decorate a larger one...and last but not least, i think another reason why i'm not Mr. Christmas this year, is because this if the first year that my Harley won't be a part of it...i miss that little guy more than words can say, and anyone out there who's celebrating this year minus one loved one knows how i feel...i miss you my darling...MUAH!

so on that note, i will however still bid ya'll a merry one...but wake me up on new year's...

(ps; the pic is of a britney of yore on last new year's eve...a time when she was still blonde, happy, and fucked up...le sigh...live it up brit'ster!!)