boyfriend

someone once said that when one door closes, another one opens. and so it has...

it's been a tough few weeks, mostly due to inner dealings of trying to figure out exactly where all this fits, and exactly when it was that you stopped thinking about yourself...

but your eyes are dry, your head is up, your hair is black, and your lips are still hot from saturday...

everyone around you have had different opinions on the topic, providing you with many different perspectives. and while all have been different, they've all drawn one conclusion; you come first.

letting someone go who you envisioned in your life down the road is never easy, but in the big picture it's best. i feel as though i've been talking about this to anyone who'll listen, but it's helped me realize that it was time to move on. why is it so hard to see sometimes? l.o.v.e blurs things that's why. and it's easy to supplemate yourself and the way you have always thought was best when the L word is involved.

time can change everything. for better or for worse. but the walls will be rebuilt, and his face will fade.

new everything. new outlook, new experiences, new boyS, new smile on your face.

pictures to be changed, toothbrushes to throw out, towels to clean, memories to keep.

you don't have to be afraid of losing him, cause you can never really lose a best friend. of course you still love him, and care for him and think about him, after all you've been through a lot together. don't fight those feelings.

and never be afraid of being alone...not when you know your friends are there to keep you happy!