THE BROWN ONE...

my little family that i have begun building over the past few years, has suffered a loss in the last few months...as many of you all know about already...and while just as many of you also know, it has been a loss that i has forced change upon myself as well as those around me...a little face i woke up to and slept with every night for 4 years is now only a still image that stares back at me from many a photograph that i surround myself with and reflect upon...and whom i will remember for every day of my life...and whilst i know his little beautiful soul is at peace, his departure has left a small hole in my heart that yearns to be filled.

my beloved will never be replaced...to even contemplate the idea would be impossible...but i know he would want myself as well as my darling jet to be happy...as well as not alone. even while little harley was alive and well, i always knew i wanted to add to my little family. out there there are many a little puppy whose life i know i could enrich if only they would join me and my white furry son in this little world we live in.

many people will tell me it's too soon...many will say i should wait...and many will probably say that i can't afford it...but in reality neither one of the original situations i was in when i decided to adopt my animals were feasible at the time...and you know what? they turned out to be the best decisions i have ever made.

life doesn't always make sense, and things won't always fit properly...we'll always do things some will tell us not to, and we'll always end up in binds that seem unfixable...but the truth of the matter is, all things work out in the end...and a decision that i hold so dear to my heart can never be wrong...especially when it comes to love...

i think a part of me will always unconsciously flip to the classified section of the newspaper and peer at what pets are up for adoption...after all it's exactly this way that i found my dear jet...and recently, as i was flipping through that very section of the newspaper, i came across a man who is looking for a loving home for the three little darlings seen at the top of this page...

they're 3 little chihuahuas, who need a good home...

if i had my way (and my little beach-side cabana that i plan to have in new zealand someday) i'd take all 3 of them under my wing and give them the most wonderful life ever! but for the time being, until i find that little cabana in the sun, my affections are drawn to the little one on the left...

is it right? is it too soon? can i afford it? should i wait? i'm honestly not too sure...all i do know right at this very moment is that i want to help them...and above all i want to love them more than anyone else could...

i think harley would be happy...and i hope jet would/will get along with him...what do you think?

HERE WE GO AGAIN

well the other night while out on what was supposed to be "a night on the town", three 20something's sat on a concrete slab and took a look at where life has taken them.

while trying to avoid a sad and unfortunate confrontation, alas one of the 3 opened their mouth and things were said, and tears were shed...

but all was not lost, and a better realization surfaced as the 3 friends took a step back and realized that this whole debacle, as silly as it may seem to the outside world, was in fact important to them...but not nearly as important as the friendship around which their meeting was based.

i know i've spoke before about just how much different this year has become than the last, and about how different I AM now as opposed to then...last year we were celebrating change, and going-away parties...this year we're celebrating 'weddings' and other such unions...and as harsh a realization as it may be to come to terms with the fact that we are all "growing up" and "moving forward"...at the same time it's not so bad!

for things will only get more complicated, and things will only progress further, and things will only keep testing our bonds...and the only thing we can do as friends, is concentrate on keeping those bonds strong...no matter what life may throw our way.

this year it's weddings, maybe the next it will be children...but the people i fell in love with oh so many years ago have always and will always remain the same, and ever dear to my heart...

i celebrate your choices my darlings, and wish us all to remain true to ourselves!

congratulations again...

POOR LINDSAY...

k, seriously this girl has got some ingrown issues...i mean come oooooon, how can someone her age with so much money get stopped twice in like a few months for the same offense??? i mean what the fuck?!~?!

lindsay, let me give you some advice...next time you get behind the wheel of a car whilst inebriated and with a suspended licence, REMOVE the cocaine from your pocket dumbass!!!!!

and the thing that gets me the most is that she's freakin' super ass rich; you're telling me that she can't afford to have a personal chauffeur cart her ass around whereever she goes?!?!?

regardless this little hollywood starlet needs to find herself some help in getting better...her career depends on it! (even though her new movie opens up this weekend...let's see how it does, shall we?)

lindsay we wish you well

POSH AND BECKS

fuck i can't get over how hot these two are...it's not like they've just gotten together or anything, but I MEAN LOOK AT THEM....it's like there's a 3 orgasm minimum to even cast your eyes on them!!!!!! move the fuck over brad and angelina, cause posh and becks are on their way to los angeles (america....)

apparently david beckham has signed a 25 million contract to play for the los angeles galaxy soccer team (football in their home land)....which is just bollocks if you ask me...i mean, cooooome on????? he's obviously worth 10 times that amount, right??? haha! just teasin...

and in the wakes of a spice girls reunion...does anybody else smell a photo opportunity?

for more scorchin' pics of the orgasmic duo check out W magazine's new august 2007 issue on stands now!

THE GREEN INITIATIVE

having grown up in a hippie style home, i've always had a profound and deep appreciation for the environment, and respect it just as much. those who know me are probably laughing right now as they know that i don't particularly enjoy "sleeping outside" (i.e. camping) or even the mild hike up a mountain...but that doesn't have anything to do with my love and adoration for our dear sweet earth, and my devotion to hereby celebrate everything it has to offer, as well as protect what it has given us.

after completing an entire year in maine where our social studies and science curriculum has been focused primarily on "climate change" there's no denying how pressing an issue it is, and how over-due all this attention to it is. i'm not here to preach my kiddies, but i would like to share a few things yours truly does in his day to day life that has the earth and it's preservation in mind. and fyi, these are just little everyday things that you can also do at home, at work, and while outside amongst nature.

check this out; from the moment i wake up in the morning to the moment i go to bed, here are the little things i do to conserve energy/water/reduce fossil fuel emissions/protect the environment from other toxic emissions that are harming our dear planet:

1. every time i leave a room i turn off the light; it's hard in a 3-story house compared to a one level apartment, but i'm doing my best.

2. i am investing in biodegradable doggie bags with which to pick up after my pooch; plastic bags and other such unnatural sacs end up in landfill sites and never decompose.

3. i take short showers/baths, and never leave the water running when i wash my face/brush my teeth or shave. something that would be even better to get into would be to even start brushing my teeth while in the shower!

4. for my morning commute, unfortunately i cannot walk (the most environmentally friendly way to travel) but i do rely on public/mass transportation; as silly as the bus can be sometimes, it still reduces c02 emmissions by cutting down on the ammount of vehicles are on the road every morning! and most buses these days actually run on biodiesil fuel which is cleaner. people who drive by themselves to work every morning, then home and back during lunch, then home again at night are polluting our atmosphere and depleting our ozone layer...so walk a little more if possible, ride a bike every now and then, or car pool with others going your way if you have to. fossil fuel emissions is the leading cause of climate change in our society today, and it's also among the most easily preventable.

5. my family and i eat only organic vegetables; they are pesticide free and do not harm the environment when cultivated.

6. i am a vegetarian; decomposing animal flesh in the wild releases methane gases into our atmosphere. DON'T EAT MEAT!!!

7. i always bring my lunch in a reusable fabric lunch bag, instead of a plastic bag that is almost guaranteed to end up in the garbage...and then of course will gather dust in the landfill sites.

8. i try to stay away from buying food that comes in non-recyclable or non-reusable (i.e. wasteful packaging). this one is not always easy, especially since most of today's microwaveable dinners sold in the supermarkets come wrapped in plastic for days...but it's something useful to keep in mind.

9. when my family and i go to the grocery store we use the newly "trendy" greenbags to carry our groceries.

10. every lightbulb in our house (except for one or two that still haven't burnt out yet) in one of the energy saver lightbulbs that will not only reduce electricity bill costs, but also use less energy over all while still illuminating to the utmost capacity. they are a little bit delayed when you flick the switch, but beneficial to say the least.

11. we recycle and compost religiously.

12. i believe in using renewable energy sources whenever possible (although living in the city does present a hinderance to such uses).

13. we don't cut down trees; deforestation releases carbon dioxide into the atmosphere. planting trees and keeping plants in the house (which we do both...seriously) actually releases oxygen; plants and trees breath in carbon dioxide from the atmosphere (thus cleaning it) and releases oxygen as a by-product of photosynthesis.

14. we drive a low-emission vehicle. hopefully will one day own a hybrid or a vehicle that runs on vegetable oil.

well there you have it folks, i could probably go on but you get the idea. every one can do these things, and if we all put them into our daily routines, then we will really be able make a difference...not to sound like an after school special or anything...but i digress!

GO GREEN!!