hpnotiq

ain't it funny how when you're looking forward to a certain night/event for a certain amount of time, and there's so much emphasis built up around it, that when it actually unfolds (even if it's everything you wanted it to be and more) you can't help but feel a little bit of an anti-climax??? and it's a terrible feeling to have, because you shouldn't be feeling sad...and it's not really a sadness but more so a feeling of relief mixed with a bit satisfaction.

that was sunday, so monday was a bit of craziness at work: crazy trainees and bitchy customers!!

so today, being tuesday, i'm going to do something a little controversial; as i'm sure some of you know, yours truly has been suffering with smoking for a few years now. i've tried almost everything from the patch to the gum, and still i feel the urge to light up every now and then.

not nearly as much as everyone else, although that's no way to compare an addiction, cause an addiction is an addiction!! fact of the matter is, is that i want to quit, and i need a little help doing it.

so, today i'm off to see doctor parsons; a general practitioner who also dabbles in hypnotherapy. now for all you skeptics out there, you can all stop giggling; i've known numerous people who've resorted to this to obliterate their bad habit, and they've come out on top!! msi will hopefully pay for it, so what have i got to lose, right?

now today's simply a consultation appointment, to see if i'm a considerable candidate for hypnotherapy. valuable candidate? i know, i was a little perturbed myself. not only have i waited a month just to get in to see him, turns out i'll probably have to wait ANOTHER month just to have the procedure done!! but if there was no consultation involved, then i'd probably doubt the legitimacy of the whole thing!! so now basically i'm going to have to convince him of my dire need to have this done!!

i've never been hypnotised before, besides that one time at the buskers (like a million years ago) when it didn't work...but that's only because i was young and silly and found it hard to even concentrate on what's real in life, let alone what's being propelled upon me by a complete stranger!! besides the guy was a hack!!

i recently saw a movie about a hypnotherapist who becomes involved in a kidnapping investigation with the police, and i just find it intriguing!!! it just seems so awesome that with a slight bit of subliminal encouraging, the brain's addiction to nicotene could be overwrought!!

so anyways, wish me luck! and cross your fingers that i don't come out of it clucking like a chicken every time someone claps their hands!!

christina 4 eva

a week brews with much excitement, but shadowed by unexpected melancholy, hinted with a feeling of lament, and the memories of a lifetime of adventures.

the end of an era, which began at a highschool dance with me bolting out of the crowd like a dublin whore from a church, (fueled by half a pint of captain morgan's dark) which flowered into a love like no other, and the greatest friendship anybody could ever fathom.

she's someone from whom i find it difficult to remember the time before, who has graced our lives with a warm touch, and seen us through more trials and tribulations than any companion should.

her name is christina, and there will never be anyone else like her...

passing time brings with it new experiences, and new options to move forward. and it just so happens, that her new experience is awaiting her somewhere else. i remember growing up, and wondering if EVERYONE eventually moved away from their place of origin? when you hit a certain age, you begin to wonder what else is out there...and to consider what life would be like somewhere else...leaving 'home' is such a frightening concept, because we put such importance into this idea of what 'home' means to us. but it's like i told her; (and forgive the ick factor in this cliche) but home really is where the heart is!! we have all made halifax our 'home', but who's to say that we wouldn't be just as happy (in the right circumstances) over yonder?? the reason i know that she'll make it, is because she gave away her heart a long time ago, and now it's time for her to build a new home around it...

leaving is never easy, no matter what the case. and in miss chrissy's...it's probably going to be traumatic. we selfishly almost wish that she hadn't been such a good person, and such a dear friend...so that saying 'goodbye' wouldn't be so hard. but in the end it's just geography that will separate her from the dear ones she's left behind. we're all still going to be in the same world, even though sometimes it may seem that we're many worlds apart...

you know when you've found that special someone who'll be forever in your heart...it's like they become a part of your soul, your being, and you know that nothing can change the way you feel towards them. no matter how far away you are, or how long it's been since you've spoken...it's the one thing in life where time really has no place, and that's in a friendship...

memories are our best source of the past, because no digital camera can illustrate the images we hold in our minds of the times that are dear to us. and i feel so blessed to have the memories of the times that we've all shared as a group. and i can only hope that she takes the good ones aswell as the bad with her...and never forgets...

so farewell to you, not goodbye...know that you will truly always be...but a phone call away, and in my heart...christina 4 eva...

the big apple

well it's officially two weeks and a day before melissa and i board the plane for our official trip to New York City. (and i never use caps, so you can imagine just how excited i am to have put the extra effort in to show just how colossal i think this city is/will be.)

over dinner last night (it was my momma's birthday; the big 47) we were discussing how many times we had visited this fine state/city. (this will actually be my third visit). the first time was while either on the way, or on the way back from new hampshire. namely old orchard beach was the main point of that trip (camping in the states with my hippy parents), and new york was merely a stop over. but a fantastic one nevertheless. and the second time was an actual trip, where we spent 2 days touring new york city while on the way to florida!

now if you want to get an idea of just how "hippy" my parents are, get this: while they were touring new york city B.J. (Before Joey) when they were younger, they got lost somewhere along the way, and being late at night and with no hotel booked they ended up parking their car on the side of the road and sleeping in it!!! the next morning, (yes they survived the night) they woke up to find two old men standing outside their car yapping away!!! turns out (thankfully) they were in a residential part of town where a lot of old folks lived, like a retirement community! the two old guys outside asked if my parents wanted to come inside and use their facilities to get cleaned up and everything! and being the flower children/tree-huggers that they are, they happily obliged!!

isn't that fuckin' hilarious!!!!

now i don't think melissa and i will be having any 'on the side of the road' type experiences, but ya never know!!! don't scare her anymore than she already is; let's just say our hostel is a little bit sketchy...no, i'm just kidding! it can only be SO sketchy on the upper west side, right?

so two little haligonians are headed for the big bad city! what tribulations and adventures await us? you never know!! it's funny how i've always been fascinated/obsessed with the energy that's generated by new york! you know what i mean? like, the people who live there, love that city, the people who visit love the city! there's something there for EVERYONE! there has to be, right? otherwise it wouldn't still have the buzz that it does!

even watching sex and the city this morning, i was struck with the realization that in 2 weeks...i'm going to BE there!!!!! MADISON SQUARE GARDEN, CENTRAL PARK, TIMES SQUARE, LIBERTY ISLAND, BROADWAY!!!! it's all going to be at my finger tips!! and the best part of it is, that instead of wasting all our time there trying to figure out the subway system, and the way the avenue's work, we have our own private tour guide!!!! kate's there to show us around, and for those of you who've heard my stories of her ny adventures, know that she's met ALL the right people!! from club promoters, to musicians, to models!! she's definitely got the In on the skinny!!! can you dig it?? so i'm totally eager to see what she has in store for us. melissa and i are going to go crazy...how could you not in new york, dude????? ABSOLUTELY NO ONE knows us there (besides kate and her friends, who we've pleged an allegiance not to embarass) but other than that, i'm talking going up and saying strange things to strangers, yelling obsenities at clubs (only little obsenities, don't wanna get kicked outta any clubs), shopping till we drop...etc, etc...

so for some, new york may seem a little overwhelming; the lights, the noise, the pollution, the intensely-high population per square mile...it's definitely a little crazy! but all that doesn't matter up against the energy, the color, the excitement, the sensory overload, and the sheer giganticness of life there!! (is that a word?) it almost sounds like too much to handle for one meer halifax boy, such as myself! but you watch, we're gonna conquer that city, just you wait and see!!

more details and shot by shot reanactments to come.

stay tuned!