hung up

update:
melanie and i had a run in with an old 'psychadelic' friend of ours from the past on saturday night...who's identity will remain a MiStereE. it was totally a fun night, however i don't think we'll be running into eachother again anytime soon...*wink, wink*

i'm totally obsessed with the new madonna track "hung up". if you haven't heard it already i'm assuming you've been living under a rock in the ditch of some rural highway in lantz that's been abandoned and inhabited only by flesh eating monkeys who keep you locked away in a cabin made of solid steel to keep the monkeys out. every time i hear it i can't help but break out in song. in fact, it just played on the radio at work, and i immediately and instinctively started shaking my ass!

i haven't bought the new madonna cd yet, but i'm a gonna!! speaking of her, has anybody seen her lately? she's pushing 50, and looking fantastic!! now she's a survivor...now i know it's a tad cliche for a wee gay boy such as myself to be writing/praising such a gay icon as madonna on his blog...but how can i help it? she's so wonderful. except for her farah hair, that i could do without.

i'm still kinda seeing halloween cowboy...he's extremely sweet, and thoughtful...a nice change in a stranger! he's very different than i...but different in an 'eye-opener' kind of way. flighty like me, but not in a ditzy way.

i'm planning a christmas party with mike from work for the access crew!! should be fun, it's at the good ol' pogue. i've never actually been to the pogue since it's been the pogue...mind you, when it was the party house! i spent probably too much time there.

so i'm planning a christmas party...but i haven't even begun to think about christmas...at least the shopping part of it all. but we won't talk about that...i'm a total guy when it comes to that aspect of christmas; i'm in the mall on christmas eve...cursing the whole idea behind that freakin' holiday!!

that's me in a nutshell right now! i don't usually offer up weekly updates, hope it wasn't too boring!!

precious

this is the sexiest song ever, it's by depeche mode (who've been around forever). you totally have to download it. it's called "precious", and i think you'll all be pleasantly turned on.

some of their other work is a tad dark, but this has a seductive beat that hits you down in your pants...

♪ enjoy ♪

dirrty texts

text messaging is the wave of the future. i mean, it's like a portable computer equiped with instant email messaging! as long as you have a cell phone number you can instantly message someone from anywhere in the world.

when kate was in new york, i without a computer found it incredibly convenient to talk with her through the wonderful world of text messaging.

some may argue that it's a tad slow having to type on a litlte phone instead of a key board (unless you have kate's crazy lil' phone that's keyboark inclusive!!) but it's totally convenient if you don't actually want to particularly talk with the person to whom you're sending the message. you can just send a quick 'hello' and that's about it.

also for those of you who don't have voice mail on their phones, ahem eener, text messaging allows you to actually leave them a 'virtual message' to ensure that what you wanted to tell them gets through.

HOWEVER, text messaging is not always as clear as an email or a REAL phone call. case in point: i received a text yesterday from 'craig'. i immediately hoped it was my crush craig, who i met through renee ages ago, and drunkenly one night called up to invite him out to the bar with us. (thus allowing him to see my cell phone number...) but when i text him back, it turns out that the 'craig' in question wasn't my crush at all...but another craig, a former flame who i inadvertantly ran into a few weeks ago (and didn't even remember seeing). so even though i was somewhat 'forced' into a conversation with THIS craig...it was kinda nice!

so text messaging wins again!! although in the former case, a phone call would have prevented any confusion as to the mysterious identity of 'craig'.

but don't worry text messaging, i'm still on your side!

diamonds, diamonds, everywhere...

so i just found out that my friend elissa got engaged!!! isn't that crazy??? the crazier part of it all is that elissa is only 23!! AND her fiance is actually her former gigalo...well he was her mistress...i guess. basically (and keep this between you and me) she was sleeping with him the whole time he and his ex were together. then he and the ex broke up and my friend moved in!

she used to tell us that she was going to get her hair done, when really she was off doing something else!

what is it with people getting engaged these days? does no one wait anymore? are we really ready to get married at this age? do we even know OURSELVES enough yet to promise ourselves over to someone else??

i thought that it was the time to break-up these days...cause it seems to be in the air lately. at least 5 couples (that i know of) have broken up recently. isn't that terrible?? what's with this time of year; people are either breaking up, or freakin' getting married!!!!

where's the happy medium?!? and what are some of us doing wrong? how is it that a 31 year old who has been with her girlfriend for 9 years, helped her pack her bags the night before last???

enough with the diamonds people...or atleast ease up on the wedding bell talk! you're driving the rest of us to drink!!


i'm only half-serious...really.

naked

ahh, the joys of a digital camera...or of having friends with a digital camera. whichever!

it suddenly occured to us, that sometimes having tattoos on your backs inhibits our viewing pleasure of these designs. at least to us. cause let's face it, holding up a mirror to another mirror just to get a good look at doesn't cut actually getting to look at it dead on!

so me and my mel's (melanie and melissa) decided to take a photo or two of our body canvas'. and i decided to reveal them to the world for your viewing pleasure.

behold:



this is melanie's back, her own personal design. the above tattoo is the buddhist symbol for "omm" (one m or two?). the flowers are her own design, unfortunately as a second attempt to cover up one that went a wee bit haywire. personally i think the end result is ten times more beautiful than the original. and it's probably the biggest of any of my friends' tattoos.



this is me! my whole back...my skinny back, apparently...i swear i do eat...honestly! i should tattoo "feed me" above my angel! just kidding! i searched and searched for an angel design that suited me, and this is what i found. she's sexy, and she's innocent, and she's flawed...and that's why i love her! the other blue swirly design is just something i found many moons ago, and they're still one of my favourites.



another view for your pleasure.



this is melissa's one and only tattoo. but she made a lovely decision for her first/only one, didn't she? it's very her! she's a lover of stars, and the blue hues in the backround totally suit her personality to a T. i'm in love with her design, every time she wears a tank top, i'm always moving it outta the way to get a better look at it! and i love the freckles too! tee hee!!

well that's us! i'm sure there'll be more to add to our growing collection of body art...well at least for melanie and i!! we don't show any signs of slowing down yet!

good ol' tattooed white trash!!

in your pants

well in everyone's life there comes a time when you find yourself posing the question; boxers or briefs?

except for nowadays we have the luxury of throwing in a combination of the two; boxer briefs!! not to mention, the newly infused 'trunk', or bikini, or g string...however there's no accounting for taste on that last one.

anyways, my point is that there's a whole world's worth of underwear out there, and i think it's time i give you the dummy's guide. "the dummy's guide to men's underwear."

and trust me when i say that i'm an expert!! well, not really...but i've seen it all!! and worn it all, so my opinion won't be biased.

shall we begin with a classic?



the brief; aka little boy briefs, nut huggers, tighty-whities...etc, etc, etc. the original underwear of choice, made famous (ironically enough) by cameron diaz in charlie's angels when she dances in the mirror in her spiderman undies...
while they're a tad cute, i haven't figured out the exact body type on whom they might compliment. (but the dude in the pic ain't doing a bad job!!) but they leave little to the imagination, therefore the wearer would have to exude a certain level of self-confidence, and be someone who is definitely comfortable with their sexuality. as for comfort levels...they've been known to ride a tad, and chafe the inside of your thighs.



the boxer brief; my personal favorite, and all around sexiest of the undergarment world. they're a cross (obviously) between the boxer and the brief. form-fitting, kinda like a bathing suit...only one that clings to your legs in a comfortable way. calvin klein was the first responsible for introducing the world to the 'make-me-drool' boxer brief...and the underwear industry hasn't been the same since. everyone i've ever seen in a boxer brief has looked unbelievably good. they hug all the right places, and are more masculine than a brief or boxer. the majority of boys that i've...yeah, have all worn boxer briefs. maybe it's the universal gay culture undergarment of choice...and even if you don't really have much of an ass, they accentuate whatever you've got!!



lastly we have the boxer; my least favorite (looking and fitting). they're loose fitting, they tend to ride high on the waist, they offer absolutely no support for the goods, and they look just plain sloppy! i do have a few pairs, and every time i wear them i feel like i'm next to going commando!! now satin boxers are a bit sexier, but merely due to their softness. the cotton ones just make me feel uncomfortable. and unless you have a fratboy/locker room jock fantasy (and let's face it, who doesn't!) i'd stay away from them. they just seem a little too childish!

the winner?? by a landslide...the boxer brief. feel free to leave your comments on the best of the best. and people, people...please take my advice, cause i know we've all been caught in one of those embarrasing speedo circumstances...

don't let it happen again!!

ooh, it's kinda crazy

oh my sweet sweet soul decision...i've been thinking of you lately. have you been thinking of me? mainly due to a sudden ipod resurgence!!

some may call you a mere one hit wonder pop sensation...but not in my eyes. in my eyes you actually have merit. you've come back from your early days of bubble gum pop, with an edgier style of music and new shaggier hair cuts!

when you came to halifax, i was the drunk groopie halfway back singing along to your every word. and if any of you want to check out the 'hypnotize' video, it was shot at the very concert yours truly attended. so take a close look and you may spot lil' ol' me jivin' like mad to my sweet SD!!

what is it about a guy in a band who can play guitar, that is so sexy? and if he can sing too? now that's the whole package. i've always had a thinkg for guys in bands...although i've never had one.

some people find the whole dj thing attractive...but i must say i'm a little old fashioned when it comes to music men. a guy who can use his hands has always been up my alley.

or atleast that's where i dream of them being...

ahem...so i leave you with the lyrics from one of my all-time favourite sd songs:


Ooh i's kind of crazy
I've been thinking baby
gotta get you out of my mind
first, you say you want me, now
your memories haunt me
why don't you just give me a sign

I thought I had someone that
I could fall in love with
someone who would treat me right, yeah
so I tried to be so kind
I thought for sure I'd made you mine
but something's weighin' up on my mind

Why don't you take my hand
and help me understand
'cause I can't figure out what you're thinking about
why don't you let me know
I don't wanna be alone
goin' out of my mind
waiting for the day you say you'll be mine

(If you want my love)
Why don't you show me then
(Help me heal the pain in my eyes)
I know you want me now
(If you want my love)
Why don't you tell me, cause
I've had enough of plastic people wastin' my time

ahhh, that's the stuff.

legally blonde

highschool stereotype quiz results...isn't that just typical.


ok, stop laughing.

boys, boys boys

this came yesterday...it was deposited on my desk at work from "your secret admirer". no joke! personally i think it was a joke, cause if it really was from a secret admirer (and not one of my friends making fun of me) why not just come out with it?!? you know what i mean? so instead of a vase, i put it in an old empty vodka bottle...appropriate isn't it?

i challenge you "secret admirer"; come forth with your stalker-like self!! just kidding...i'm pretty sure it was just somebody from my work messing with my emotions. but it's pretty nontheless!!

i only ever received flowers once before; a dozen roses (gag) on valentines day (double gag)...accompanied by a valentine in the coast...the latter was actually sweet.

in other news; ever notice how boys can be completely transparent sometimes...that is, until you date them, then they're a complete and utter mystery!! well let me tell you that when you break-up...it doesn't get any clearer!

there is residualness between him and i...feelings that are still hurt, hearts that still need mending. when we speak we fight, lashing out at eachother...we're still angry...or maybe it's just me. underneath it all, all i want is to be good again.

l.o.v.e

there's that word again. of course we still love eachother...at least i hope so...he's been my best friend for so long, aswell as a lover, and a companion. and now what? everything's still so blurry...things left unsaid, or maybe we've said too much...

i want to move on together...if that makes any sense. but we have to stop this feuding. time is helping, i can tell...for both of us. and i think neither wants to let go...cause it's not about letting go, it's about progressing...just in a different form. but how do you get to that different form?

i think two people dealing with these issues need to speak face to face...the phone never helps anything. we shouldn't be so afraid of eachother. it's just us...and i miss us...and by us, i mean 'you and i'...

my first date after...

venturing out into the unknown is always a little bit scary...especially when that land of the unknown is the 'dating world'. it's a scary world out there boys and girls...but it's also a somewhat exciting one!

leaving all thing's B (and B related) behind, i decided to explore the world of A. yes, i'm naming the puppy boys and girls. Adam; my "halloween cowboy".

i'll spare you the details, well most of them...perhaps because i'm a little unsure as to the direction that this will take. but maybe that's half the fun; not knowing. i am out of practice a tad, remember?!?

i've always enjoyed meeting new people, and when drinks are involved it gets all the more interesting. i was immediately swept up in his sweetness. i think a part of me would have believed anything. but he had enough to him to back it up. i can see it being dangerous allowing yourself to fall a little too quickly after a 'you know what'...but i've never played games, and i ain't about to start! the evening was well spent, perhaps a tad too soon to indulge myself so quickly...but at least the ball has begun to move. all i sought was a little bit of fun...and it was fun that i got!!

well my lil'halloween cowboy, shall we meet again?

i'd like to think so...

k, enough with the witty t's.

promise.

mom's the best, ain't she?

boyfriend

someone once said that when one door closes, another one opens. and so it has...

it's been a tough few weeks, mostly due to inner dealings of trying to figure out exactly where all this fits, and exactly when it was that you stopped thinking about yourself...

but your eyes are dry, your head is up, your hair is black, and your lips are still hot from saturday...

everyone around you have had different opinions on the topic, providing you with many different perspectives. and while all have been different, they've all drawn one conclusion; you come first.

letting someone go who you envisioned in your life down the road is never easy, but in the big picture it's best. i feel as though i've been talking about this to anyone who'll listen, but it's helped me realize that it was time to move on. why is it so hard to see sometimes? l.o.v.e blurs things that's why. and it's easy to supplemate yourself and the way you have always thought was best when the L word is involved.

time can change everything. for better or for worse. but the walls will be rebuilt, and his face will fade.

new everything. new outlook, new experiences, new boyS, new smile on your face.

pictures to be changed, toothbrushes to throw out, towels to clean, memories to keep.

you don't have to be afraid of losing him, cause you can never really lose a best friend. of course you still love him, and care for him and think about him, after all you've been through a lot together. don't fight those feelings.

and never be afraid of being alone...not when you know your friends are there to keep you happy!

glossary

i just thought that the photos might need a little explaining:
- the first one's my parents pumpkin, gross out eh?
- this is kheoni; aka medusa for the evening.
- piglet, i mean harley
- melissa in frank's afro...doesn't she look like foxy brown??
- harley (2)
- frank in melissa's wig (tee hee)
- melissa and me (with my scary eyes with a smoky backround...)
- this was on my parents street; they had this giant blow-up RIP sign on their lawn, it was crazy!!
- melissa and me (2)
- my mom dressed (appropriately) as a hippy with harley the pig and jet the bumble bee
- a (obviously done with a stencil) witch pumpkin that i loved.
- mom with dogs (2)
- save the best for last; this is MY pumpkin. my FIRST pumpkin attempt ever...not bad, eh?

and a few more...

pour some sugar on me

some halloween photos of me and me family: