well this week has been a little on the unorthodox side; to make a long story short an evil from my past which i thought had long since reared it's ugly head, decided to rear it once more...what followed was about 3 full days worth of panic attacks so bad that i thought the world was ending...i managed to come away full tilt, but not before i freaked out in my social studies class...

after pulling myself out of that black hole, and deciding to turn over a new leaf...a more professional, grown-up one, one that doesn't include those pretty little pills that i can't seem to get away from, or any other illicit substance of the sniffing sorts...i even changed my hair!! i know i can say that i'm going to behave till i'm blue in the face and it won't mean anything...but i feel a change in my bones. i always prayed that something would happen that would scare me out of this way of life that's got such a choke-hold on me, and i think this past weekend was finally it. for anyone who's ever had panic attacks, knows exactly what i'm talking about...all the air seems to escape from the room, and you can't see past what you're feeling at that exact moment...

moving on, after that fiasco my beloved harley had to be taken to the vet...basically it turns out he has some sort of herniated disc (sic) that requires him to go on a pretty little pill (no, not the same kind) to make him better...a steroid "anti-inflammatory" of sorts that will make him all better. i cried, he cried, but he's on his way to recovery. looking into that little dog's eyes, i'm continuously reminded of just what i'd do for him...he's my life, and i can't bare to see him uncomfortable, or in pain...i would truly do just about anything for that little dog! (and jet too, of course!)

so it's the weekend, and you know what that means; 2 whole days of drunken debauchery ahead of us!! and this weekend is a little unique seeing as how it's st. paddy's day!! coming from an (almost) irish upbringing (keefe isn't far from o'keefe) i'm planning to celebrate with my true irish lovely "carolyn"! she's throwing a party at her place in canada that's sure to be a jolly good time! so as i bid you all a fantastic weekend, and a happy st. patrick's day, i hope you all drink a green beer, and have a toast to the irish!

top o' the mornin' to ya