STARFUCKS, MALLS, AND GAY BOYZ

well halifax and i have met again; yup this little twink has left the confines of fort kent and retuned to civilisation!! and let me be the first to say how fuckin' great it feels to be back in a city...a real city, not a town, not a village, but a sweet sweet city!! full of starbucks (where i'm sitting right now, rambling aestheterically on my laptop) malls and boutiques aplenty, and more gay men than you can shake a gay stick at!!

ahhhh, feels nice!

i drew a conclusion on fort kent recently. it only tooke me a semester to actually decide my take on it, but rather late than never riiiight?? basically my advice for any of you out there looking to take up residence in "the little city that could" be forwarned; it gives you waaaay too much time to think!! due to it's lack of diversions, and the fact that you will probably get to know almost EVERYONE who lives there at some point during your stay (which can be a good and a bad thing) you can't help but think about pretty much everything.

i went there with (what i thought was) a relatively clear head; i thought i knew what i wanted and was ready for a fresh start. but once i settled in and realized that "wow, this is it??" i immediately was forced inward on myself, and began thinking a little too hard about myself, and about life in general. and well, i guess you could say that i learned a lot about myself since i've been there. i now have a clearer perception of what i want out of life, i know now what type of a person i should be with, and i now know what type of people i want to surround myself with!

and for that i thank you, fort kent!

when you're in a city, you have tonnes and tonnes of things you can do to take your mind off of something that's bothering you. you can go to the movies, you can go to a club, or you can sit in a coffee shop and just hang with friends. but when all that's taken away from you, and you find yourself stuck in a place where there's nothing to do but watch paint dry on a wednesday night, you will be forced to THINK, and to reconsider things, and to doubt that you really know yourself at all...

so it's been quite the eye opening experience so far...and i'm looking forward to seeing how the second half will play out.

so wish me luck on my journey's in the future during my love affair with northern maine...but not so fast yo, i still have lots of damage to do to this fair city i used to call home while i'm here...so look out!!!!

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