i throw my toys around

have you ever asked your parents if you've ever actually really matured from the time you were a child, till now?? like, in our our eyes we hopefully see ourselves as a tad bit more mature, intelligent, boisterous, industrious and plain old 'smarter' than we were when we were younger...but i can't help but wonder; are we really??

how many of those childhood characteristics do we still harbour? and if given the chance to come out (and play) would we allow them to? do we ever really give up the bad habits (whining, complaining to get what we want) that childhood has bestowed upon us? and if some of them still linger, when do we finally bid them farewell?

now i'm not talking about the peter pan complex of not wanting to grow up or anything like that, but the more subtle traits...for example; throwing temper tantrums, whining, throwing things. but not just bad habits, what about the not so shitty ones like security blankets; if not the literal ones, what about a toy that we've hung on to over the years and clutch under the covers at night when we're scared? i'm sure we've all got some sort of surrogate blanket, am i right? what about cartoons?? what once were a childhood source of amusement, with age have gathered some sort of cult following and taken on a deeper more psychadelic significance...you know what i mean...

now it's redundant to even think that we haven't made any progress since we were kids, but it's interesting to consider what traits have hung around all these years! do we all have a little child inside of us who knows what tricks to pull to get their own way?? are we just kids in adult bodies, or has the personality and the mentality that lurks inside us grown up aswell??

personally i know that i still encompass many of the traits that i posessed as a child; for instance, i still throw my toys around, i still whine (ocassionally), and i enjoy getting my own way...HOWEVER, i also know the difference between right and wrong, and i can now take into account other people feelings when making decisions...two things that most children do not posess until they get older!

but (and i use work as an example, cause i know we've all seen the crazy tards who come into our offices on a day to day basis acting like children) there are people who publically act like children to get what they want, even as elder adults!! what is it that makes some people think that acting like babies will allow them to get what they want, even as full-grown adults?!? it's ludacris, really!! but when you think about it, these people really haven't changed that much since they were kids...and chances are the way they treat you (a complete stranger) is probably a good indication of how they act at home (and towards the people/family in their life) and probably an even better indication of how THEIR kids act, and their kids after that... and so on and so on!

but you can't change people, the best you can do is try and shrug it off and be happy you've grown in the manners that you have.

and the next time you speak/see your parentals, ask them! did you turn out the way they had hoped?? have you learned from the mistakes you made as a child? and how many of the charactersitics adopted from birth, do you be-grudgingly still posess? cause let's face it, no one's been around as long as your parents have, right?

i know my parents are proud...they are, really...no, seriously...