the skinny

so as i picked up the latest US magazine this morning, i was struck with a feeling of slight dismay as i saw my (should-have-been) best friend, lindsay lohan, looking even more waifish than usual on the cover.

now as much as i shouldn't be phased when i see the sudden ramifications that hollywood can have on the health/appearance of it's younger members, seeing as how i see it every week, i was particularly taken aback when i saw lindsay-crack-whore-lohan gracing the cover of not one but TWO trashy magazines this week, both sporting headlines like "EXTREME DIETING" and "WHY SO THIN??"...US also featured Lohan's pal Nicole Richie, who has gone from pleasantly curvy while starring in 'the simple life 1&2' to now looking frail and unhealthy...

so when someone my size starts calling girls in hollywood "waif-like", you know there's something wrong...now, don't get me wrong, i love my body and those who know me know that my petite-ness cannot be attributed to under-eating...(i tend to eat like a cow) i enjoy blaming genetics for my heroin-chic look, where as the girls in hollywood have nothing to blame but the heroin itself. but COME ONE...lindsay, you look DISGUSTING!!! if you can count your ribs through your back, there's a problem. i wish i could post a picture of her on this blog so you could get the whole effect, but instead the next time you're in the super market glance over the magazines in the check-out line and you'll see little 'miss heroin chic' herself. and she has the gaul to say (and i quote) "compared to other actresses my age, i'm actually overweight. there are so many really, really thing girls out there..." i'm sorry; OVERWEIGHT?!? how coked out were you when you were caught saying that, lindsay??? come on, have some respect for yourself sweety!

we all know that hollywood deals in the business of being thin, there's always a pressure to be the perfect size 2, and look your best...blah, blah, blah...but when is enough, enough? the problem is that these young girls (case in point with lindsay) are entering into this business full-on, head first, with no safety net...and they're getting swallowed whole!! it sucks them in, and spits them out a shadow of their former-selves. we've seen it happen time and time again with child stars, HELLO paging drew barrymore!!!! where's cory haim right now? or cory feldman? or that kid from the terminator movies?? where's macauley caulkin today??? the ones who aren't strong enough to resist the temptations of hollywood or to remain true to themselves and not fall prey to it's pressures will end up in betty ford, puffing away on menthol's, eagerly awaiting their next hit of morphine.

is thin still in?? haven't we come far enough in the 21st century to overcome these absurd notions of the way the media thinks we 'should' look? and is it all worth it? we're damaging our bodies trying to attain a certain state...and for what? for whom? if it was for our own personal satisfaction, that's one thing...but if we're slaving away on tread-mills trying to lose just another five pounds because anna nicole and the people at trimspa told us to...that's just wrong!! so how are we going to get away from this way of thinking?? will we ever stop striving for perfection, or atleast the medias perception of what 'perfect' is/should be?? and when will "beautiful" not be that strung-out, dark eyes, sunken features look? and how this is too thin??

the answer is virtually unatainable! because beauty, is in the eye of the beholder, and always has been. the unfortunate thing for miss lindsay is that the younger you are, the more vulnerable you are to the influences that your surroundings have to offer...such as cigarettes and drugs (both apetite supressors). and i have it on good authority (remember that kate found lindsay's wallet in new york stuffed with 2 grammes of cola inside) so i know that she's not just 'eating better' and 'working with a trainer' or any bullshit like that...that girls falling prey to the same pressure to be thin that karen carpenter felt just before she became anorexic. and she's on her way to crack-whore-dome...well maybe not so seriously...but you have to see the picture of her, and then you'll understand.

in life you have to be content with the way you look, and it's easy to look at the latest issue of marie claire with gwen on the cover, and long to look like her...is that ok? in some ways. should we resort to drastic measures to attain that look? absolutely not. it's easy for the people in hollywood to feel pressured to be thin, and it's also easy for us to think we NEED to be thin to fit-in....but it's simply not true...we have to be content with ourselves first, and the rest will follow...

now lindsay, if you're reading this, keep in mind that i'm still a HUGE fan...i'm just worried...i know what it's like to feel the pressure to be thin and beautiful...that's why my mom warned me to stop doing crystal and binging after every meal...


i'm totally kidding, by the way...it was my dad, not my mom...