THE NEW

well i woke up this morning and i can actually say that i honestly felt different. maybe it's the new year that's among us, maybe it's just my personal realization that i'm not a teenager anymore, or maybe it's just that silly little thing we call 'adulthood' that's finally starting to affect me...but whatever it was, the end of 2006 has catapulted yours truly into a new state of mind.

i think it struck me while we were out on new year's eve, while we were dancing at "the french quarter"; i looked around the bar, and everyone (who was around my age) wasn't really dancing...most were just socializing and just walking around, (most enjoying their highs!!) and it hit me; wow, i'm one of them!! i don't know if that makes any sense, but i came to realize just how old i actually am! i had an amazing time, don't get me wrong, but the days of clubbing and staying up and out all night and sauntering in at 5 am have come and gone...and to paraphrase carrie "that ship has sailed...and tragically, i'm still on it!"

but the outlook is good, and i'm feeling pretty good about 2007. i have my hypnotist appointment to quit smoking (for good) on the 8th, i'm thinking that (although i'll always be a clubber at heart) that i'm somewhat through with the 'going out EVERY single weekend'; sometimes it's nice to just hit a house party, as opposed to going out to a bar and not socializing with your friends account of the music being so loud!!

and the major change i'm looking forward to is the next person i plan on dating will not be someone i meet at a bar...cause if past experiences have taught me anything, it's that everytime a club romance developes, it goes NOWHERE...

let that be a lesson to all of you.