glad he doesn't know i ate pills on saturday night...jeez...

it almost doesn't seem fair...the universe brings someone to you, and then takes him away...it throws you a bone, and then takes it away just as quickly...what's the point? i mean you spend all this time wondering what's the point in meeting someone who makes you feel the way you've anticipated feeling, and how you thought you 'd feel when you met HIM...and then all of a sudden it's over...and the world makes sense again...before you know it, everything clouds over, leaving you more confused than before.

when something doesn't work out, you can't help but blame yourself...as if it's always your fault, and then you start recounting all the things that you might have done over differently if given the chance...then it strikes you that even if you had done those things differently, you might still end up where you are right now... so what to do? should it be you who changes? or do we just end up looking for love in all the wrong places?

you can't help but start reconsidering who you are, and just what you give to someone else...should you open up so early? or should you keep certain things to yourself? is it too late? can you recover? will he forgive you for things you're too embaressed to even say out loud? or will he understand?

now factor in distance, now what? as if it's not tragic enough to have to say goodbye to someone you love as a friend...what happens when you say goodbye to a lover? dare i ask him to wait? or is it even worth my breath?

whatever the result, the party will go on...

DRESS TO KILL, lovas...

and again i give my ode to my bitches:

HERE'S TO THE MEN WHO WE LOVE,
HERE'S TO THE MEN WHO LOVE US,
BUT THE MEN WHO WE LOVE, WILL NEVER LOVE US,
SO FUCK ALL THE MEN, HERE'S TO US!!!!

dress to kill
aug 18th, 2006
costume extravaganza
MY going away party, sluts...

start thinking of an idea...

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