breathe

michelle branch once sang "if i just breathe, let it fill the space between, i'll know everything will be alright..." and you know what? it's true...

everyone always tells you to take a deep breath and just relax when things get heavy, and while i've been on the receiving end of this advice, i must admit at the time it usually just frustrates you even more! but once you do allow yourself to cool down, breathing usually does help.

why just look at blake and i; breathing (heavily...) certainly helped us last night. saturday was the day that he and i decided to cut smoke out of our lives completely, in an attempt to save moola and to allow us to breath better...and well for those of you who've ever tried to quit smoking know, it ain't easy! the thing that kinda makes it all the more aggravating to me, is that i've already been down this road (that quittin' road) and came out on top...but then i got a little curious and thought that i might be able to just have the occasional one, like with cocktails or whatever, but that ofcourse didn't work...and here i am again...and it's tough...my hun is brave and strong willed and doesn't want any help with it, which i totally respect...and in the end i'm not worried because i believe in him...and most of all i believe in us.

so needless to say we kinda got to eachother last night, but with a deep breath and a few shared words, michelle's predictions came true...it might be a little tough for the next few days, but with buffy by our side and lots of drinks to take the edge off...we won't let it get the best of us.

if you're reading this, thankyou for making me get that off my chest, i always told you i never go to bed with a chip on my shoulder and i'm glad we didn't...go to sleep that is...with a chip...anyways...xoxo and lot's of them.

so kiddies, the moral of today's story is that when things get tough and discouragement takes over, never keep it inside, look towards the brighter side, laugh it off, look into the eyes of someone you love, and always remember to breathe...