HEAD OR HEART

i just watched angel break up with buffy cause he's trying to think more with his head than his heart...they have the most wonderful/tragic relationsip ever and watching re runs of this show just starts to hit a little too close to home.

who hasn't heard those words spoken to them? who hasn't had someone tell them that they love them, but that "in the long run, it's better this way..."

Why?? why is it better this way? isn't love enough? when is it not enough? and who decides? why is it that some people think it better to end things sooner even when they're heart is telling them not to?

what happens to these people afterwards? are they content with their decisions to cut it off, or do they feel regret? or do they simply deal and move on.

i always think back to those relationships i've had that have ended like this and wonder where i'd/we would be if maybe we had of given it another shot...would i be here now? or would we still be together and unhappy? what would have happened to buffy and angel if angel had of stayed in sunnydale and not gone to l.a.? would it have lasted?

i think life forces us to move on...but i don't think our hearts would ever let us forget...thinking and hanging onto these past relationships will do nothing but hold us back from what we're sepposed to do. everyone says that things happen for a reason...so i guess they do! but it's sometimes hard to not wonder "what if..."

i'll always think with my heart, instead of my head...cause in my "long run", it's more worth it...