CHOP STICKS AND CLOCKS

so as 2007 began i decided to add another new years resolution to my list: i decided to make the conscious decision to not wear a watch anymore! now this may seem like either no big deal to some or at least a very odd resolution...but to me, someone who has worn a watch his whole life, it was a big change!!

but it struck me recently, ok mainly after i got a new tattoo on my left wrist (where my watch usually lies) and wearing a watch over it would just look tacky and too much, but anyways, it struck me that wearing a watch is almost like wishing your day away.

i mean really, when you're at work you're constantly looking at the clock just wishing and hoping that the "work part" of your day will go by just a little bit faster...and while at school, you're constantly looking at the clock on the wall wishing and waiting for class to come to an end so you can be free...and well, that's not the right way to be in my opinion! at least not anymore!

so no longer will yours truly be ruled by the little wrist clock...no longer will i be a slave to time...no longer will i wish my day away, not even the boring parts!!

the second order of business today would be my new found obsession with chop sticks! (pictured above). I've always been a lover of asian cuisine, from thai to sushi to basic chinese...i love it all! (mind you it's the vegetarian version of all that food now to which i indulge, but still!) but i've never been very good at operating the sticks that chop, so i usually digress and opt out for the canadian/americanised version of utensil choice to consume my delectable foreign dish. but not anymore! i attempted using the wooden sticks one night over xmas break with my dear sweet kate while having sushi...

AND I'M HOOKED!! i've been finding myself eating noodles of any kind simply for the pure joy of eating them with my chop sticks! i even use them to eat random vegetables for lunch...basically anything i can get my hands on i'll use them to eat with!!

so next time you look at those exotic looking eating utensils and turn away cause they look too difficult, give'em a try! it's not as hard as it looks, and i'm guaranteeing you a pleasant experience. they can even make simple ramen look and feel like an exotic meal!!

Kelly Clarkson - Walk Away

just because she's fantastic

FOR EVERYONE WHO'S EVER BEEN FORCED TO SWALLOW WHEN CAUGHT OFF GUARD:

Exciting new drink> > > >>> > > >>A woman and her boyfriend are out having a few drinks.> > > >>While they're sitting there having a good time together she> > > >>starts talking about this really great new drink.> > > >>> > > >>The more she talks about it, the more excited she gets, and> > > >>starts trying to talk her boyfriend into having one. After a> > > >>while he gives in and lets her order the drink for him.> > > >>> > > >>The bartender brings the drink and puts the following on> > > >>The bar -- A saltshaker, a shot of Baileys, and a shot of lime> > > >>juice.The boyfriend looks at the items quizzically and the woman> > > >>explains.First you put a bit of the salt on your tongue, next you> >drink> > > >>the shot of Baileys and> >hold it in your mouth, and finally you drink> > > >>The lime juice."So, the boyfriend, trying to go along and please her,> >goes> > > >>for it.> > > >>> > > >>He puts the salt on his tongue -- salty but OK.> > > >>He drinks the shot of Baileys -smooth, rich, cool, very pleasant.> > > >>He thinks - this is OK. finally he picks up the lime juice and drinks> > > >>it.... In one second the sharp lime taste hits...> > > >>At two seconds the Baileys curdles ....> > > >>At three seconds the salty curdled bitter taste hits.> > > >>This triggers his gag reflex but being manly, and not wanting to> > > >>disappoint his girlfriend, he swallows the now nasty drink.> > > >>When he finally chokes it down he turns to his girlfriend, and> > > >>says. Jesus, what do you call that> >drink?"> > > >>> > > >>She smiles widely at him and says,> > > >>> > > >>Blow Job Revenge"

Ask A GAY MAN : Denim Edition

just because i love him...i give you william, my boyfriend...the love of my life!

the revolution starts today; make it loud; make them proud; make it a reason to be heard; make it count; make it matter; blow the roof off; make them need it; make it hot; make it soul; make it a sonic boom; make it matter by making it yours; make it a reason to get up in the morning; make it heartfelt; make it dirrty; make it full of sex; make it raw; make it edgy; make it addictive; make it ssshakable; make them smile; make them laugh; make them see the you you see; listen to your ticker; listen to your soul; make it what you want to do; make it silly; make it naive; make it your favorite color; have the mind of a child; make it picturesque; make it a cool shape; make it pop; make it like a drug you can't get enough of; make it full of love; tattoo it; pierce it; make it sing; make it dance dance; make it teachable; make a cure; think of a cause; work for it; make it blonde; make it ambitious; forget anxieties; leave your inhibitions at the door; make it stay up late; make it last

this revolution will not be televised

ME

so that was a photo taken of me yesterday...just kidding...but i did go skiing last night at the hill like right across the street from my house!! it was AMAZING!! honestly, i never thought i could have so much fun frolicking in the snow! me! the hater of snow!! but i came to the realization the other day as i was shopping for snow pants; hey, if i'm gonna be living in the worlds most northern spot (well not really, but you get it) i might as well take advantage of mother nature's "gift" that she's provided the people of this village with...

that being 'snow' of course!

when in rome, eh? and i'm certainly glad i did partake in last night's activities. it was LOADS of fun...the bunny hill and i had a few chance encounters...and then i braved the t-bar lift all the way up the big-kids hill!!!! it was a tad bit terrifying...but all in all, i can honestly say i'm HOOKED!!

when we going next??? cause i see myself being drafted in the "snow bunny" club...

my god, what's happening to me???

FYI

by the way, what i write on here is for a select group of people...that select group of people is commonly known as "MY FRIENDS", to which some people are not really a part of...i think 'they' know who they are.

i don't give a shit if my blog offends people, i don't give a shit if it hurts peoples feelings, i don't give a shit if it's controversial, i don't give a shit if it comes off bitchy/mean/hurtful/insensitive/malicious/childish ect...because guess what????

IT'S MY FUCKIN' BLOG!!

so if you find yourself thinking that maybe you may fall into the category of my "non friends" then ask yourself: WHY AM I READING THIS ANYWAY???

cause here's another little piece of info for ya; i don't write this for you, i don't write this for any of my ex'es (except for you blake...i'm still your biggest fan!!), and i don't write this for people i don't like...

i write this blog for ME...how do some people even find the address, is something i've found myself asking myself a lot lately...but one thing i'm sure of; i'm not apologizing for something that i wrote on here that got misinterpreted by someone who assumes the world revolves around them...

so in closing; if ever you got (in error) an invitation to read my inner thoughts and rambles...and you know i don't want you here...i hereby revoke it.

GO AWAY!

ASK A GAY MAN : Fashion Edition #4

my new boyfriend...i heart william sledd

DIAMONDS ARE BETTER THAN GOLD...DON'T YOU FORGET IT

i'm so better than you...do you LOVE IT? come and get it...eat it, fuck it, lick it, live it, dance, wind it up, and don't stop...i keep messin' up, that's what i do...learn from it, and don't let him decide how you want to be... no matter how he multiplies...

you decide

how you let it be.

come and fuckin' get it, baaaaaby

fuck him mn

owww owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
let the sensations multiply and come and get it

LIKE A SHOOTING STAR...

we are fuckin' shooting stars; we are what we want to be, we are what we strive to be, we are what we hope to be...and everyone out there who thought we might not make it, or thought we might not be right for that person, or thought we might not be right for that job, or thought we might not be right for that position, or thought we might not be ready for that kinda situation, or thought we might not be ready for a baby, or thought we might be too immature for marriage, or thought we might be too immature with money, or thought we might be too crazy to consider another person in our grand scheme of things, or thought we might be too judgemental for someone else, or thoght we might be too PENT-UP IN OURSELVES to actually ALLOW SOMEONE TO LOVE US...HELLO MIZZ HOLLIS; who thought we might we too fuckin' proud to actually allow ourselves to open up to the prospect to being happy, to everyone who ever turned their head at a love song, to everyone who ever thought they were never good enough, to everyone who thought they would never hold someone in their arms, to everyone who thought thet would never love someone...

think again...and shut the shit up.

HYPNOTIQ

going along with the idea of change that i've adopted for 2007, i under went hypnosis today...yes, for the second time...in an effort to quit smoking once and for fuckin' all. i'm so hoping it will work this time, actually scratch that...i'm so hoping i will stick to it this time, and not get cocky or down on myself and turn to those nasty nasty poison sticks again.

the whole idea behind hypnosis just floors me. i can't really say i fully understand the actual premise behind the whole deal...but i can say that i believe in it.

i left the office in the same state that i left the last time; a little dazed and confused...but hopefull. and that's all that matters. it was a woman doctor who i saw this time, and she had the most soothing german accent i've ever heard. which is ironic because i don't usually find german accents the least bit melodic, but it was pretty nice!

anyways, stay tuned for updates my kiddies...and keep those fingers crossed for me!

Cassie - Long Way 2 Go

looooove this song

H 2 DA ott

recently i started thinking about where exactly i'm going to want to be teaching when i graduate from university, and it struck me...i can go ANYWHERE!!

that's one good thing that always hits me when i'm not in a relationship; and that's that there's absolutely nothing tying you down!! no one else to consider before you make decisions; no one else's situation to take into account; and basically no one else to worry about!!

you can be completely and totally selfish...well, not selfish in the strictest sense,but you have nothing keeping you in one place...no compromises to consider...just you!

which obviously paves the way for loneliness to eventually settle in...BUT at least you'll have lots of freedom to take advantage of, right?? i guess it all depends on what way you look at the situation...

anyways, i'm getting side tracked...when i was thinking of locales on which to take up residence, certain attractive options came to mind...new zealand has to be at the top of my list...it's warm, tropical, all around beautiful, and land of the zandel (apparently that's what they call flip-flops). my cousin is currently teaching there. he just got a permanent position, and actually just got married to a lovely little local as well! in short, it's paradise!!

a second option, and just as hot a climate, would be texas...yuppers, don't mess with texas biotch...it's where i'd like to be!! my uncle lives and works down there as well and he speaks very highly of it. aside from the texas chainsaw massacre chapters, i've always been quite fond of the warmth and down-home-straight-outta-the-south atmosphere that emanates from that fine state...and if they could just forget about Bush for one second, then maybe we could get along juuuuust fine.

RESOLUTIONS

1. to keep living, loving, and laughing as hard as i possibly can.

2. to listen to myself more, and put myself first.

3. to continue listening to my heart, and not let my head interfere with my actions.

4. to not date anymore fuckin' jerks, assholes, children, boys who are unsure of 'who' they are, guys who don't know what they want, or guys who will use me/ignore me/play games with me/fuck around/hurt me/act immature/give me the silent treatment, or who are anorexic/bullimic/drug addicts/19 years old/from moncton or any other small town or who are either too much different from me. phew.

5. to continue to do well in school, and get myself a fabulous teaching career in either new zealand, texas, australia, new york, los angeles or france.

6. to quit smoking, once and for fuckin' all...come ooooooon hypnotist!!!!!!!!!!!

7. to not let my past dictate my future. what's done is done, leave your inhibitions at the door, and always look forward, not behind.

8. to grow up...a little anyway...ok, well mostly in regards to quitting BAD habits.

9. to not be afraid to jump at an opportunity that needs to be taken, even if it scares the shit out of me.

10. to be me.

CONFESSIONS OF 2006

i had a terrible one-night stand, i drank waaay too much, i did too many drugs, i gossiped a lot, i slept with about 10 different people, i didn't always use a condom, i had 4 hiv tests; 1 scare (but all is well now), i made a lot of mistakes, i was judgemental...often, i lied to my best friends and my parents, i picked up bad grammar, i lost the love of my life, i used my visa too much, i shopped and wasted a lot of money on things i didn't need, i used my grandparents christmas money for coke, i took up smoking again after quitting for a year and a half, i started cracking my knuckles again, i fucked up my ex-boyfriends 'left-over' shit that he had at my house...and then gave it all back to him, i called the police on the same ex and reported him as a drunk driver while i was pissed at him, i turned a little ghetto (at least in regards to my taste in music), i flirted with my friends boyfriends, i told secrets i said i wouldn't, i talked about my best friends behind their backs, i lied on my student loan application, i lied to people i met to make myself sound more interesting (only a little), i talked myself up a lot, i watched a hell of a lot of porn, i bought 2 new sex toys...and named them hot boy names, i was irresponsible, i told at least 100 people to 'fuck off', i swore waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much, i got 2 new tattoos, i wasn't as good a friend as i could have been many times, i used sex to get something i wanted, i had sex with someone i didn't even really like, i said i love you to someone whom i didn't, i used people emotionally to get what i wanted, i was mean to people, i made out with like 100 people, i kissed girls, i partied a helluva lot, i was a glutton, i told people they didn't look fat when they did, i lost weight, i ate things off the floor, i danced dirtilly, i was a little slutty, i was vain, i jay-walked often, i contemplated smashing someone's windshield in their car, i didn't always think before i acted...

but i also learned.

THE NEW

well i woke up this morning and i can actually say that i honestly felt different. maybe it's the new year that's among us, maybe it's just my personal realization that i'm not a teenager anymore, or maybe it's just that silly little thing we call 'adulthood' that's finally starting to affect me...but whatever it was, the end of 2006 has catapulted yours truly into a new state of mind.

i think it struck me while we were out on new year's eve, while we were dancing at "the french quarter"; i looked around the bar, and everyone (who was around my age) wasn't really dancing...most were just socializing and just walking around, (most enjoying their highs!!) and it hit me; wow, i'm one of them!! i don't know if that makes any sense, but i came to realize just how old i actually am! i had an amazing time, don't get me wrong, but the days of clubbing and staying up and out all night and sauntering in at 5 am have come and gone...and to paraphrase carrie "that ship has sailed...and tragically, i'm still on it!"

but the outlook is good, and i'm feeling pretty good about 2007. i have my hypnotist appointment to quit smoking (for good) on the 8th, i'm thinking that (although i'll always be a clubber at heart) that i'm somewhat through with the 'going out EVERY single weekend'; sometimes it's nice to just hit a house party, as opposed to going out to a bar and not socializing with your friends account of the music being so loud!!

and the major change i'm looking forward to is the next person i plan on dating will not be someone i meet at a bar...cause if past experiences have taught me anything, it's that everytime a club romance developes, it goes NOWHERE...

let that be a lesson to all of you.

WINTER OF...

education, teachers, maine, fort kent, snow snow and more snow, gwen stefani's new album, the U.S of A, new black uggs, drinks at the bowling alley, claire, long drives, the beach on christmas eve, black christmas, blonde again, no more bad relationships, no more children, wayyon, peori mixes, ghetto music, where'd joey go??, partyin' at old haunts, rcmp graduations, friends with money, vodka, cola, forgetting about 2006, moving forward, careers, future longings to teach in texas, future longings to teach in new zealand, dreaming of warmer weather, melatonin, getting detained by customs officers, puppy manicures, cold basements, access ns, new sex toys, naming new sex toys, ice ice baby, rob, still on veggies, tiny christmas trees, friends leaving, rollin', MYSPACE fiend, kids books, louis vuitton, wife-mistress-bitches in clair new brunswick, akon, "smack that", marlboro ultra light menthols, hypnotists, msn, new blogger, crunches and push-ups, fucking up ex boyfriends shit, pop art, soda, no more mcdies, porn star myspace friends, gwen stefani concert in february, vegas, working with another gay joey, making out in bathroom stalls with exes while another ex thinks your in there doing coke or having sex just to piss him off, block and delete, growing up, having enough of old things, chillaxin, touching, fucking, playing, wind it up, new lubricants, not getting along with your father, the grays, you're not irreplacable, extremists, slippers, clear credit card bills, straws, pacifico bathroom attendants, new, don't get it twisted don't get clever this is the most craziest shit ever, 2007

2006

well as the holidays wrap up for yet another year, one night of guaranteed debauchery still is waiting in the wings...you betcha, it's the night we wave a fond farewell to 2006 and with open drunken arms welcome in the new year, in hopes that it will bring us tidings of love and joy...and a few less shit storms than the past one!

i don't know about you, but i'm not the least bit sad to see 2006 come to an end. it started out a little bit promising, then it all fell apart. come to think of it, besides me moving away and going back to school, not much of any 'good' has actually happened this year. and i'm not saying this to be depressing, it's just that well...it can only get better, right?? well, at least i hope so.

sure we had some good times, some drunken times, some happy times, some laughs, and some new pairs of shoes...but as optimistic as i am in regards to life and everything in general, i can't really say that 2006 has brought me any sort of advancements. i've had a slew of failed relationships this year, and some sadness, and some overall shitty bad moods...BUT, the outlook is good!!! you heard it here first.

so come on 2007!!! let's make this a rockin' one! school is amazing, i'm surrounded by fantastic people, i have a clearer head than i did at the beginning of last year, and i'm (overall) in a lovely place.

so as we get ready to kick 2006's ass out the door, let's raise a glass of baby pink champagne in hopes of more amazing times to come!

cheers!

Grindhouse trailer

this is the trailer for the movies i was talking about (below)...enjoy!!

GRINDHOUSE

i don't know if ya'll have heard of quentin tarantino's and robert rodriquez' new double-feature horror flicks that are coming out in april, but if you haven't heard...consider yourself warned!! it's apparently a double-feature horror flick marathon, featuring two movies (one by each master of mayhem) and you can say that i'm a tad bit wet over the idea.

being a long-time tarantino devotee, i would await the opening of his newest film with the anticipation of a pervert on toonie-tuesday...make it a double feature with his side-kick (and equally talented) roberto rodriguez and i'm gonna cum in my pants!!

i've seen both previews, and the most i can gather from them is that quentin's is about a woman who has her leg amputated and replaced with a machine gun...and the other has something to do with a demented hospital...hmmmm, can you say EXXXCITING?!?

they're both apparently going with the theme of the blaxploitation films of the '70's, and will both feature 'fake movie trailers' for imaginative new movies that don't exist...

what can we expect from mr tarantino, riight??

check out the extended trailers online...you'll be impressed!

MERRY CHRISTMAS FROM ME AND THE KING

well i couldn't think of a better way to wish ya'll a merry ho ho than with the king himself!! no one can sing xmas tunes like elvis; his 'blue christmas' album is still to this day some of my favorite christmas music of all time, and i don't think i'll ever get tired of hearing "blue christmas" from the most beautiful man that ever lived!

today i spent the afternoon at the one place in this province that i don't think i could ever get tired of seeing; the beach!! it was beautiful, and the waves were huge! and now i remember why i loved it here!! what a better way to spend christmas eve than at the beach, right?

so i just wanted to write a quick post wishing you and yours all the happiness that this time of year can bring! and no matter who you are, or where you celebrate, or with whom you do, make sure to have a jolly one!

be sure to drink lots o' nog, listen to 'blue christmas' at least once (for me!!), spend time with your family, and eat way too much! 'tis the season!!

i love you bitches,

merry christmas

ADDICTED TO JERKS

well yesterday miss jenn and myself were walking through the mall on lunch, and i had an epiphany; i am completely, totally, 100% addicted to jerks!!!

honestly; take all the amazing nice men who have been interested in me in my life, all the men who have given me everything i THOUGHT i wanted...and what did i do? nothing...i did nothing with them...why, you ask?? i just wasn't interested! but give me an asshole; someone who's attention and love and affection i practically have to BEG for on a good night...and i can't get enough!!! i'd fight till my fingers bleed for someone who treated me badly...

i don't understand it!!!!

what is the rationality behind this people?? will somebody please tell me? why are assholes so damn attractive? why is it that someone who makes you fight for their attention, and keep you up at night wondering where they are, or keep you asking yourself why they didn't call, or keep you hanging on by a thread... sound like a good idea??? it's like we're fucking masochists, and enjoy punishing ourselves.

give us a nice guy, who would pay us all the attention we'd ever want/need, be at our beck and call all day long, shower us with gifts and kisses, say everything we ever want to hear, and ALWAYS CALL WHEN THEY SAY THEY WILL...and we run for cover!! we complain that they're TOO ATTENTIVE, or that we're being suffocated, or that we need space, or that things are getting too serious...

why is it that the tables can turn so quickly, and suddenly we become the needy/clingy/'my boyfriend doesn't pay enough attention to me' whiny little bitch, who's more than willing to go back for more pain time and time again?!?!?!?

someone needs to write a book about "the perfect relationship", and everyone has to read it and then all relationships would last forever and be happy...

maybe stephen king could write it...

DON'T GET IT TWISTED, DON'T GET CLEVER, THIS IS THE MOST CRAZIEST SHIT EVER

pete wentz is hotttttt...just wanted to start today's post off with a little sanna saaaan!! and while on the topic; have y'all seen him naked?? there was an email circulating a while back with leaked cell phone pics of my manz pete wentz fondling himself...it was nice!!

i was going to dedicate today's post to talking all about, actually scratch that; BITCHING about how trying on my nerves it is to be living back with the parentals while i'm home over christmas break...but i seem to have lost my urge to complain for the day.

basically my frustrations aren't any more abundant than the ones i originally felt while home in the summer time; i'm stuck in the basement, the dogs aren't allowed on the couch, and i have no real privacy, blah blah blah...so i'm not going to bore my fellow readers with my trivial complaints.

christmas is near, the drinks will soon be flowing, and work is somewhat slow (hence why i have time to sit here and write to you guys!!) so why complain,right??

as i'm writing this, i'm now realizing that there was in fact no real subject behind this post...but i guess it goes nicely with my 'naive inner-workings' title...

anyways...

XXX MAS

well it's almost that time again, yup you guessed it; XXX MAS TIME!!! there's a certain hustle and bustle in people's step, a crispness in the air, and annoying caroling heard everywhere you go!

ahhh, the holidays!

although this year i digress; i just don't feel it. how could this be? normally i'm stoked to go gift shopping, normally i count down the days to santa's arrival, normally i'm in party-planning mode...but this year all i wanna do is lay down and take a big ol' nap!

don't get me wrong; i'm totally up for a redonkulously HUGE party, and can't wait for new year's eve (as usual) but as for christmas, i really just don't care!!

perhaps it's the fact that i'm still in school mode that's responsible for taking away my christmas buzz;, or perhaps it could be the fact that i left my xmas spirit in fort kent; or perhaps it could be the fact that i'm working my whole break away and therefore it just doesn't feel like i'm actually on holidays...who knows??

i even tried watching christmas specials on tv to try and pep up the ol' christmas spirit...but sadly, to no avail...

so i guess i'll just have to enjoy the holidays from my usual slightly drunken standpoint that's typical of the keefe family!! don't worry, tis the reason for the season, riiiight??

cheers

harley on the path

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STARFUCKS, MALLS, AND GAY BOYZ

well halifax and i have met again; yup this little twink has left the confines of fort kent and retuned to civilisation!! and let me be the first to say how fuckin' great it feels to be back in a city...a real city, not a town, not a village, but a sweet sweet city!! full of starbucks (where i'm sitting right now, rambling aestheterically on my laptop) malls and boutiques aplenty, and more gay men than you can shake a gay stick at!!

ahhhh, feels nice!

i drew a conclusion on fort kent recently. it only tooke me a semester to actually decide my take on it, but rather late than never riiiight?? basically my advice for any of you out there looking to take up residence in "the little city that could" be forwarned; it gives you waaaay too much time to think!! due to it's lack of diversions, and the fact that you will probably get to know almost EVERYONE who lives there at some point during your stay (which can be a good and a bad thing) you can't help but think about pretty much everything.

i went there with (what i thought was) a relatively clear head; i thought i knew what i wanted and was ready for a fresh start. but once i settled in and realized that "wow, this is it??" i immediately was forced inward on myself, and began thinking a little too hard about myself, and about life in general. and well, i guess you could say that i learned a lot about myself since i've been there. i now have a clearer perception of what i want out of life, i know now what type of a person i should be with, and i now know what type of people i want to surround myself with!

and for that i thank you, fort kent!

when you're in a city, you have tonnes and tonnes of things you can do to take your mind off of something that's bothering you. you can go to the movies, you can go to a club, or you can sit in a coffee shop and just hang with friends. but when all that's taken away from you, and you find yourself stuck in a place where there's nothing to do but watch paint dry on a wednesday night, you will be forced to THINK, and to reconsider things, and to doubt that you really know yourself at all...

so it's been quite the eye opening experience so far...and i'm looking forward to seeing how the second half will play out.

so wish me luck on my journey's in the future during my love affair with northern maine...but not so fast yo, i still have lots of damage to do to this fair city i used to call home while i'm here...so look out!!!!

wind it up

Eating Out

k, i know i'm a youtube addict, but this is from the movie "eating out" and i know you'll love it...make sure the sound is up!! the line about "being gang-raped" is classic!!

oh, and i wanted to tell all ya'll about my myspace account...check it out! it's like my blog part 2! www.myspace.com/joeykeefe

i hope you enjoy kiddies, love, me

Video Mash Up-Gwen Stefani/Madonna-What u waitin 4/hung up

love this video...genius, pure genius.

BUY IT BITCHES!!today we celebrate the other lady in my life (yesterday it was jenna), and the release of her sophomore album appropriately entitled "the sweet escape". you got it kiddies, today miss gwen releases her follow-up record to L.A.M.B, and i couldn't be more excited!! i've been a die-hard gwen fan for years...remember i still hold true to my original statement that i'd cut off my left pinky right now to go see "no doubt" in concert...and i fell totally head over heals in love with her first solo release, and from what i hear, this cd promises much of the same...if not better!!originally not the biggest fan of her first release "wind it up", in fact i even downloaded it twice just to make sure i had the right song...it just didn't sound like her at all. but at a second listen, i realized "it sounds EXACTLY like my gwennie!!" full of blips, quirks, twirks, and a beat to kill a horse...what more could you ask for!! i was a little peeved at the fact that it took her so long to come back to us, uh, i mean the music industry...but cut her some slack, she was off makin' babies!! so leave the comfort of your homes asap kiddies and go pick up her newest release...you won't be disappointed. the revues say it's a little more 80's vibe than her first solo cd, with just the edginess we've come to expect from our little lamb. tracks to look out for:1. wind it up2. 4 in the morning3. orange county girli heard live versions of all of them, and they're fantastic...enjoy!!

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i'm hali bound in 9 days...and i couldn't be happier about it...i was talking with my wife today, and we both decided we need a vacation!! unlike our other (smarter) classmate counterparts, we stayed in fort kent over the american thanksgiving...for our boyfriends...and ended up having the worst weekend of our entire time here...grrr, is all i can say.

but the outlook for christmas break is exceedingly good!! i'm going to go back to work, shop, go clubbing, and hang out with my family...

so if you're one of my family members reading this, and by family i mean my friends, know that i never stopped thinking of you this entire time, and can't wait to see your smiling faces, and get one of your loving hugs!

being here has opened up my eyes to the fact that home is where your heart is! and while i consider fort kent to be my home now, halifax (drama included) will always have a soft spot in my soul...we've been through a lot, ol' hali and i...and i eagerly anticipate it's feeling of comfort, of familiarity, and of love!

hard times will be everywhere...and it's wrong to blame a place for shitty things...the fact is, they happen! and this journey has begun to force the harsh realization that boys will come and go, good times will be mixed with sad ones, and life will sometimes throw you curve balls! the best thing we can all do, is keep smiling, dance and sing whenever we can, and buckle in and enjoy the ride!

surfs up kiddies!

i totally found the only gay boy in fort kent...and fucked him...repeatedly! then realized that i don't date "kids" anymore...especially not fuckin' retarded ones! NEXXXXXT!!!!!!

that was sexual

wow, this has been quite a ride so far...good ol' fort kent, maine...where do i even begin. when i left halifax in august, i was so excited to be free from it. i had a serious hate-on for that town...and over thanksgiving it just became worse. i held to my previously considered notion that that city has become toxic for me...that it oozed drama...and that nothing good could any longer come from it.

and then i came here...800 kilometres away from the place i called home for my entire life...and i was so sure that it would be easier. everything would be more clear, and i would be able to reconnect with the "me" that i felt that i had lost over the past year or so...

school is amazing...i'm constantly learning so much, and i'm completely surrounded by the most amazing group of friends and classmates that i could have ever hoped for. so in that regard i consider myself to be the luckiest boy in the world.

but as fate has somehow allowed, i fell in love again...and as the red flags became rationalized away, as "I" tend to allow, i ignored the signs...and once again it ended...but this time was different, this time i didn't lose a part of my lil' heart...this time (even though i hurt) i was actually made aware of just what i need...and just what i deserve...and just what i won't settle for...

i think my greatest problem in relationships has been that i will fight till my knuckles bleed for something that may not be worth fighting for. and now i know just what is worth it, and just what i have to let go...

so as i end this semester, i let go of all toxic anger...i let go of my fear of being alone...and i let go of that longing to fix something that should forever remain broken.

i know a little more now just what i want...what i deserve...and above all what i don't ever want to have again...and i feel good!

lyke, OMG y'all

inked on skin for life,

something alike and yet the same,

a reason and symbol left behind,

full of danger and yet so tame.

what you want will always happen

never give up on what's true,

blue, green, black and blonde,

something old somehow seems new.

through music and through words,

both crafted by the hand,

so much more hopefully to come,

like a plane that will not land.

so much beauty in your eyes,

expressed through what you do,

with a click and a sweep of a brush

your vision always shines through.

promise to make it a better one,

last year is done and through,

breath deeply and prepare to blow,

this time the birthday boy is you.

xoxo

that was sexual

WIND IT UP!!!!!!!!!

WHAT R U LISTENING 2 RIGHT NOW?

1. moi lolita- alizee (loves it, thanks jen!)

2. glamorous- fergie

3. love stoned- justin timberlake

4. hung up/what u waitin' 4 (mash mix)- madonna & gwen stefani

5. wind it up- gwen stefani

6. nothing in this world- paris hilton

7. rock this party- bob sinclaire

8. as lovers go-dashboard confessional

9. maneater- nelly furtado

10. lips of an angel- hinder

11. bling- the killers

12. nails for breakfast, tacks for supper- panic! at the disco

13. u + u'r hand- pink

14. here i go again- rihanna

15. i don't feel like dancin'- the scissor sisters

16. no reason- sum 41

17. hit me baby, one more time- dilana

18. spooky little girl like you- ?

19. stolen- dashboard confessional

20. when you gonna give it up- sean paul

download away!

LAST BIT OF TRASH FOR THE DAY...

and by posting this pic, i've officially commented on the lives of all my girls today!! yes boys, this is paris and brit-brit hangin' tough...what's the world coming to, i know!!!

so lil' lady spears has gotten herself a nice hefty divorce from that skeezy excuse for a human being, has taken up the cigs once again (hopefully not around the kidz that is) gotten herself a new weave, and apparently has forgotten to keep her pants on when she goes out.

do you see what hanging out with paris hilton can do to a girl?? apparently, they were partyin' it up in vegas, and the girl decided to take off her pantaloons, and parade around the club in only her fishnet stockings...my oh my...just when i was getting high hopes for her again...she pulls a "no pants" trick on us!!!

no, it's not that bad...a little tasteless, yes, but not that terrible. at least she's still wearing shoes, right? unless she ditched those in the bathroom letting history repeat itself...no, she wouldn't...would she?

but seriously, the girl's lookin' mighty fine, and i'm happy to report that she's in the works on a new album these days, due out early next year.

i guess you could say i'm mildly excited...

uh huh.

MIZZ RICHIE ALSO LOOKIN' A LITTLE DARK THESE DAYS

my other favorite "skeletwin" (coined by trent; love you!!) the other pictured below, has been sporting a noticeably darker shade around town these days. and i must say i'm a little torn as to how i feel about it.

i was behind brit-brit when she went black, and even lil' l.lo looks mighty ravishing as a dark brunette...but lil' richie has me on the fence.

blonde rocks, and it always will...there's no denying that. but i must send some "maine kudos" out to my ladies for taking a stab at lookin' different!! keep on doin' your (tiny) thang girls, the gays are behind ya!!!

the caption beneath this photo, in case you were interested in the other-less-superficial-side to life, is that there was a rumor that poor nicole has had "reverse gastric bypass" surgery (i think) in an attempt to make her look...plumper? she of course denies any such rumors.

ahem.

L. LO'S TRANSFORMATION INTO DEMI MOORE IS COMPLETE

it's been coming for a while now, as you can tell...the little redhead who could, has officially delved a little too far into the 'darker side' of life, and has become none other than demi moore.

the resemblance is uncanny. the long dark locks, the tanned skin, the hanging-on to elite fashionistas; that's donna karan by the way. there's actually another pic of the two of them making out (ok, kissing on the lips) that was taken a few moments after this one, but i couldn't bring myself to post it...look around and i'm sure you'll find it...not that exciting boys, don't get your panties in a twist...

she's quite the chameleon, our little l.lo...blonde one second, coked out the next...where does she find the time?

POP ART

last weekend when i was spending money that i don't have in bangor, i came across a camera that mattinc had told me about. it's a pop art camera that takes four different pictures at four different angles, in four different colors (blue, red, yellow and green) at the same time.

how excited am i??? very, people, very.

i've had a love for pop art for many years now; this is a pop art rendition of miss marilyn, to give you all an idea of what i mean. i do believe this one was done by andy warhol, back in the day...

i don't really know what it is about this art style that i love so much, but let's just say that my obsession is growing!! i guess you could say that it's certainly a little off, and a super-stylized depiction of a life through a technicolor lense. it's the contrasts that i enjoy the most i think...

so needless to say i've been taking pictures like crazy lately. and if you move the camera as you're taking a picture, it sepposedly creates a blurred effect in at least one of the four pictures it takes.

hopefully when rite aid gets the technology to put their photos on a disc, i'll be able to post some of them on my blog and give you all a little taste of the artiste i've become!

tee hee...stop smirking.

GET IT

GET IT






















take it, want it, give it, get it,
i'm lucky, you're lucky, open it up,
see what i see, not what you do,
you be my drink, i'll be your cup

beauty runs deeper than skin,
soul, body, and heart,
attraction is the whole,
never wanting to be apart

stars can be blind,
people can be too,
forget what's in your head,
try to forever see through

forever must be happy,
content with the you,
take it, leave it, listen to it,
i'm the one that is true

you're my mister and my sir,
listen for my sweet ring,
play it, write it, blue and green,
beautiful sunshine let it sing

that was sexual

LOVE STONED

those flashing lights come from everywhere, the way they hit it, i just stop and stare...

she's got me love stoned...i think i'm love stoned...she's got me love stoned...i think that she knows, i think that she knows...oh, oh, oh...i think that she knows, i think that she knows, oh, oh...oh

and now i walk around without a care, she's got me hooked, it just ain't fair...i'm love stoned, and i swear that she knows...i swear that she knows...

FINITO

well i can't say i didn't see it coming...obviously my brit-brit is waaaay too good for this fuckin' loser federline-character...i mean come on, people!! what did she ever see in him?!?

if it wasn't his skeezy-homey-g-wannabe-gangster style of wife-beaters and below the knee shorts, it was his revolting way he carried himself (wait, that's kinda the same thing...) or his laughable attempt at a music career.

personally, i think he was constantly spiking brit-brit's punch with somesort of muscle relaxant that enabled him to spread his skanky seed inside her in hopes of carrying on his family name...

and while we can't say he wasn't a tad bit successful in that attempt (they just had their second horny love-child) it seems as though ms. spears has gotten off the zoloft and woken up from her temporary-insanity driven marriage-spell to this fuck-wad and officially signed the "irreconciable-differences" driven divorce papers!

let's all take a moment out of our busy day and let out a "FUCKIN' 'EH" for britney's realization of what the rest of the world has always known was a devastating and pukishly disgusting mistake.

right on ya, brit!

IN MY HEAD

why is it that there always seems to be something to be worried about? seriously, maybe i can attribute my worrysome nature to the obsessive-compulsive nature that seems to run in my family, or maybe it was the years of popping pills that has caused me to develop pre-mature age lines...but whatever the reason, why do i always let myself become plagued by something??

if it's not this thing, then it's that...or if it's not you i'm worried about, it's him i'm obsessing about. when does it end? do i find some sort of odd pleasure in being constantly paranoid about the people/things in my life? or is it just a part of my personality?

and how do some people just seem to breeze through potentially stressful situations without even a hint of worry? what's their secret? cause i'd really really kill to know...

i don't consider myself a self-conscious person, but every now and then my paranoid nature catches up with me and my whole world seems to fall apart over something that's (usually, and hopefully) self-constructed without any real source or cause. it's usually all in my head, but why do i find myself totally helpless when it comes to letting those things go??

usually the issues don't last for too long, but every now and then something happens that sends me into a retarded paranoid neurotic tizzy!!!!

HELP!!

A WALK ON THE DARKER SIDE


well turns out that i have a little bit more free time to post a few more halloween thoughts, than i had originally anticipated!! and by 'free time' i mean while i'm waiting for my laundry to finish drying at dear old "dinah's" across the street from school. and with the absence of my iPod today, i'm at a loss of activities to drown her incessant ravings out...so here i am!!

after a much unneeded ordeal with the opposite of fine people at "coastalcontacts.com", my original halloween contact lenses ("manson" style) are not coming. so at the risk of having a 'bad' costume (which will never happen for yours truly), i've decided to modify my "goth" costume idea just a tad.

basically instead of scary white-out-marilyn-manson style lenses, i'm going to refurbish last years "angelic" model...hopefully they will do the trick...although i'm not going to get into just how retardedly pissed off i am at the shits at coastalcontacts, all is not lost dear readers...halloween will still come as expected...

anywho...

this year i've decided to dress as i am not, and go as a "goth" for tonight's halloween festivities. why would a blue eyed sun loving blonde such as myself want to dawn dark apparel and black nail polish for such an event, you ask? well i guess you could say that i've always found myself a tad bit taken by the "goth culture" of yore. you don't see too many "stereotypical" goth-like kids these days, but in my opinion the 'gothic' subculture hasn't strayed too far from view.

what's it all about anyway?f according to my new best friend; wikipedia.com one can identify the subculture as so:

The goth subculture is a contemporary subculture prevalent in many countries. It began in the United Kingdom during the late 1970s to early 1980s in the gothic rock scene, an offshoot of the post-punk genre. The goth subculture has survived much longer than others of the same era. Its imagery and cultural proclivities indicate influences from nineteenth century Gothic literature, mainly through horror movies.

The goth subculture has associated gothic tastes in music and fashion. Gothic music encompasses a number of different styles. Common to all is a tendency towards a “dark” sound and outlook. Styles of dress within the subculture range from death rock, punk, androgynous, some Renaissance and Victorian style clothes, or combinations of the above, most often with black attire, makeup and hair.

does wikipedia have it right in your eyes? is it really just a branch of the 80's punk vibe that we all fell prey to at some time or another? or is it a deeper idea than that?

no one can deny humanity's fascination with darkness, and the macabre. i think it would be foolish for us to say that all of us don't have a dark side to our personality's. even "little miss sunshine" has her shitty days, right? so why do we hide them? has it become so socially unacceptable to dabble in ways that are not the norm that these subcultures have been forced completely underground and out of view? and who's fault is it anyway,that this way of life has become so tabboo?

couldn't you say that maybe those who follow a gothic style of life are just simply being honest? perhaps they listen to that other voice on their shoulder, and this is simply the way they express themselves! i always find it funny that we accept certain styles/ways of life/attire more than others. who ever said that "preppy" is acceptable, and not "goth"?? and will it always be this way? and am i falling into society's trap of alienating certain groups by merely adorning the 'dress-up' attire on halloween? maybe i am adding to the idea that it's not acceptable by almost inadvertantly making fun of it tonight? what do you think?

whatever their/your/my reasons for sometimes allowing the darker side of life to creep in a little, we can't deny that it's there. so yours truly (who's considered 9 days out of 10 as a self-proclaimed Mr. Brightside), will walk on the shadier side of life tonight as a full size, life-like portrayal of HIS dark side...

photographic representations to follow.

A NIGHT TO SCREAM

last year i dedicated a month's worth of blog entries to my favorite howliday, but unfortunately in the essence of time, dear readers you'll just have to settle for this one. (and maybe a few more if i feel inspired!)

ahhh, all hallow's eve...it's soon upon us; the legendary night when the dearly departed spirits of the other world are allowed to return to earth to haunt the unsuspecting, all dressed up with nowhere to go...

the night will be crisp, the candy will be flowing, and no one will go to sleep before taking a quick peak under their bed...just in case...

it's a very odd tradition, isn't it? dressing up in costume, travelling from house to house collecting candy, and preying on eachother's deepest and most ingrained fears. i guess there's no denying just how much the human race loves to be scared...

there's nothing like it in my opinion; that nail biting feeling, the heart pounding, the cold chills, and the hairs on the back of your neck all standing on end...

so as you get ready to celebrate yours truly's favorite night of the year, proceed with caution, dress spectacularly, drink lots, scare everyone, stay out late, and remember to check in your closet before you close your eyes...

oh, and the footsteps you hear outside your bedroom door...prey they go away...


happy halloween

WHAT WAS ONCE

this is more of an apology to all of my fellow readers for not posting anything lately. (how many of you there are!!) you know i don't normally log-on to simply give ya'll a recap of my day's occurances...but this time we'll just write if off as an exception!! and for those of you who i haven't spoken to on the phone in a while; you can take this as a little summary of the last few weeks!!

school is going by very well these days; i'm EXTREMELY busy!! we don't so much have mid-terms in every class but we do have tests, and assignments, and reflections, and papers, and readings, and books to finish, and i'm sure there are a few more tests/papers thrown in there that i have forgot to mention!! so in other words, i haven't had a lot of time to breath since after thanksgiving!! but all is still good!! and by good i mean that i'm keeping myself busy and out of trouble!!

mind you i still find the time to make a trip to canada to go drinkin' with my girls every friday night! (tonight being no exception!!) and it's a good thing i made the treck last friday, other wise i might not have met a certain someone!! i was going to just write solely about him today, but i dont' want ya'll to heave on your keyboards at my gushings that i'd be sure to regurgitate!! he's lovely, he's fantastic, he's passionate, he's sweet, he's thoughtful, he's level-headed, he's not afraid of who he is, and he likes lil' ol' me!!! and don't forget BEAUTIFUL!!

ahem.

so that's been going pretty good!! who would of thought that i'd have to go all the way across the country to find happiness!!

everyone here has gotten progressively closer as the months have rolled on. and i can honestly say that i've made some (hopefully) life-long friendships! we're all here for the same reasons, and every day i wake up i always find myself thinking that i'm at summer camp or something! but then i pinch myself and realize that, i'm just home!! this is my home, for now! and it hit me a little while ago just how happy i am here!! it's nice to be faced every day with new experiences, and new faces! let's face it, halifax (not the people in it...or not most of them anyway) had gotten old to me. and some may make fun of me for being all the way in bum fuck nowhere, but to them i turn a blind eye now, and simply shrug it off! i'm happy!

i still miss my beloved's, and to you i say don't worry, december will be here before you know it! i'm looking forward to coming home, and i'm not at the same time. thanksgiving didn't turn out totally the way i had hoped...drama oozes from that city, and i'm so over it. (you know what i'm talking about). being unhappy and worrying too much about things that can't be helped is stupid and unproductive, and i'm done with it. leave those things behind, and keep your eyes on the road ahead.

so i bid you a temporary farewell, and a kiss and a hug until i write to you all again...have a fantastic weekend, blow a kiss to the halifax air, and keep on smiling...it looks good on you!

All of us believe
That this is not up to you
The fact of the matter is
That it's up to me

Hey, Hey, Hey
Hey, Hey, Hey
Let's Go

How can we fake this anymore (anymore)
Turn our backs away, and choose to just ignore (choose to just ignore)
(Some say) Some say it's ignorance
It makes me feel some innocence
(Some say) It takes away a part of me
But I won't let go

Tell me why can't you see, it's not the way (not the way)
When we all fall down, it will be too late
Why is there no reason we can't change (no reason)
When we all fall down, who will take the blame
What will it take

Nothing could ever be this real (be this real)
A life unsatisfied that I could never feel (I could never feel)
(Some say) This future's not so bright
Some can't make the sacrifice
(Some say) It's much more than just black and white
And I won't follow

Tell me why can't you see, it's not the way (not the way)
When we all fall down, it will be too late
Why is there no reason we can't change (no reason)
When we all fall down, who will take the blame
What will it take

Times like these I've come to see how,
Everything but time is running out

Hey, Hey, Hey
Hey, Hey, Hey
What

All of us believe in what we need
What we have's what we don't see

Tell me why can't you see, it's not the way (not the way)
When we all fall down, it will be too late
Why is there no reason we can't change (no reason)
When we all fall down, who will take the blame
What will it take

Tell me why can't you see, it's not the way (not the way)
(so how long, has this gone on, i don't see this ending)
When we all fall down, it will be too late
(it's too late, we can't change, what has now begun)
Why is there no reason we can't change (no reason)
(we act like, its not right, why are we pretending)
When we all fall down, who will take the blame
(we've been wrong, for so long)
What will it take
(WE'VE KNOWN THIS ALL ALONG)

what exactly does christina do??

Self-proclaimed definition of an occupational therapist
by chrissy darrigan

Occupational therapy,
What is that you say?
Is it related to finding others work?
And is physio the same?

The truth is it is neither,
But you can find us everywhere.
In hospitals, schools, or community centres.
There’s no limit to where we care.

We work with people with physical disabilities,
And mental health issues too.
We work with those who have been injured
Neglected, or abused.

With babies, and young children,
Middle aged and older folks,
No matter where one is in the life span
We may be able to provide some help

An occupation is not just a job
But refers to all meaningful things you do
It could be dining, studying or leisure,
It’s really up to you

There activities that you complete
Out of desire, need or expectation
That you would surely miss,
If unable to do them for one or more reasons

So when one needs to re-learn an activity
Or have one changed to meet present needs
Acquire some new skills
Or home adaptations that will please

Occupational therapists are present
Focused on the goals you would like to achieve
We’ll listen to your stories
Our targeted outcomes are your dreams


isn't our little poo a talented little one???

25 years crazy,
not a moment too late,
here and there and back again,
now deciding my own fate.

new place, new friends, new everything,
old behind, looking ahead,
no regrets, no inhibitions,
loving more instead.

cutting you off,
knowing it's for my own good,
people who hold you back,
never totally understood.

sometimes wondering what if,
dreaming of a different time,
when things seemed clearer,
addicted like a thief to a life of crime.

do we ever move on,
or stay connected in our minds,
to you, to him, to everyone,
to an idea less sublime.

such excitement is sure to lie,
in classrooms and with the young,
try my best to keep the chin up,
and try my best not to get stung.

love happens when it shouldn't,
a surprise sometimes that smiles,
rather feel it than rather not,
will always be in style.

wait for it, you know you want to,
never wanting to wait to play,
don't wanna lose this feeling,
turn it up and make it stay.

too many cups of fun, a pinch of drama= one helluva weekend!!

that was sexual

THAT 4 LETTER WORD

no it's not a dirty one, it's "home" you pervs!! just kidding...i probably shouldn't even be writing about this tonight cause it's gonna get me even more excited than i already am. but i just wanted to express just how pumped i am to be going home tomorrow!!

it's funny how someone can miss 'home' so much, eh? i mean i've totally settled into a groove up here in maine, but a piece of my heart obviously still misses the familiar.

when things are new and undiscovered, they're fun and exciting and thrilling and very much all encompassing, especially when they're centered around scholastic reasons. but when you think back to the place you left, you can't help but yearn...you can't help but reminesce, and you can't help but miss...

will home be this place again? will you return to the familiar to start all over again, or will this move be the first of many? will you repeat the actions of the last few months all over again in another year, or will we let the yearning we feel for the past take over and force us back looking for it again? and what happens if when you go back 'home' everything THERE is different? all the old friends gone away, and the 'good old days' a distant memory?

for me that's not really an issue right now, cause i haven't been gone nearly long enough for much to have changed, but what about in a year from now? i can't expect to return and expect things to have remained the same...so where do you go from there? well the only answer to that, is that only time will tell...

there's that concept again, eh? what do you think?

SEDUCTIVE, YOU

have you ever noticed in songs when the singer is singing TO someone, it's always "YOU"...never a name, always "you..." who's you??? why not name them? that's why i've always found it sometimes hard to actually feel for the artist lost in a lamenting love song, when i know for a fact that they're happily married or something...

do you know what i mean? most songs out there on the market these days are love songs, and most are sad ones singing about how they just got their hearts crushed...and all that bullshit, when in real life they're married with three kids!! how are we to relate to that, and how are we to think they actually know how we're feeling (assuming we're currently going through something similar to the song's content) when we know it's all for show??

getting back to the "you" factor; i think it's more seductive for the object of the singer's affection to remain nameless...faceless...it's almost as if they're talking to us...just like poetry; being vague seems to have the better results. i wonder why that is?

try it next time your favorite love song comes on the radio...who's "you"? who are they singing to? a past lover? a current behind-the-scenes mistress? it certainly adds an aspect of mystery to it, doesn't it?